Afiq Adham

2011-11-10T04:21:00.002Z

mungkin hidup ini sudah tiba ke penghujungnya. mungkin juga tidak. namun sejak dari awal lagi, sayup-sayup mengatakan yang diri ini tidak akan bertahan lama. kematian sejak kebelakangan ini acap bermain di benak fikiran. bukanlah hajat di hati untuk mengambil nyawa sendiri, nauzubillah. cumanya banyak kematian berlaku di sekeliling. Al Fatihah buat Fakhrul Mukminin & Nurul Izzati, semoga tenang dan dirahmati. dengan kehendak Allah akan saya susuri langkah kalian.

perasaan ingin mati sepatutnya diiringi dengan rasa penuh takwa. persoalan iman dan ibadah, dosa dan pahala seharusnya mematikan rasa ingin mati itu sendiri. dan Allah, lanjutkanlah usia ku ini agar aku berkesempatan untuk menjadi seorang muslim yang sempurna. amin.

hidup mati itu hak Allah, rahsia Allah. maafkan, ampunkan dosa-dosa, halalkan makan pakai, dan doakanlah kesejahteraan di alam seterusnya.

mimpi semalam

2011-06-12T06:46:00.004+01:00

semalam dia datang lagi,

menjengah ke dalam ruang mimpi,

berbaju melayu kuning lembut,

lengkap bertengkolok,

berdiri sayu di tengah sebatang jalan.

wajahnya sayu,

keningnya sedikit berkerut.

dan dia berkata, "Tunggu"

menjejak realiti

2011-06-06T10:07:00.000+01:00

lama sungguh tidak menjengah ke blog sendiri, inikan pula nak menulis sesuatu. 24 jam yang dikurniakan setiap hari, sememangnya mencukupi namun telah diisi dengan agenda agenda yang lain.

membaca post post lama, pelbagai perasaan menjelma. kelakar melihat ketidakmatangan diri, sedih mengenangkan masa yang telah lalu. tapi hidup mesti diteruskan.

beberapa hari lepas, semasa meredah kesesakkan trafik dari Penang ke Kuala Lumpur, terasa diri ini seperti ditampar, dihempas bertubi, apabila mendengar kata-kata dari seorang sahabat.

sesuatu itu tidak mungkin menyakitkan seperti ini melainkan apa yang dikatakannya adalah tentang kebenaran.

diakui, sememangnya diri ini masih kukuh menjunjung memori kehidupan lampau di perantauan. bukan mudah untuk tidak berbicara tentangnya. lebih sukar apabila tidak banyak yang dilalui dalam 2 tahun selepas itu boleh dikongsikan.

apapun, semoga diri ini cekal dan tabah. walaupun perlahan, kaki kaki ini sudah mula berdicit-dicit dengan kenyataan. semoga semuanya belum terlambat

Setahun Yg Lalu

2010-07-04T03:44:00.000+01:00

Setahun sudah berlalu....
hmmm it's been a year since i left Edinburgh. i can still remember watching the straight line of raining cloud through the plane window, horizontally separated the blue scottish summer sky into two. it was so beautiful, almost surreal.

i can still remember the taste of orange juice served by the flight attendant, the taste of nasi masjid, with lamb curry, chicken tandoori and mashed spinach with potatoes that i had before the long 17 hours journey.

i can still smell eddy's smelly squashy attire. and the light malboro that he smoked while sending me off to edinburgh airport with that dark blue mini cooper. i can feel the sadness, and how lonely i was on that day, standing alone in front of the large screen, waiting for my flight to arrive.

i miss the fresh old town smell of edinburgh's air, how the breeze smoothly enters my nostril, with a soft cold touch every time i breath in. and how each breath out is filled with satisfaction, yet at the same time u can feel the desperation, and urgency for another breath in. this continuously alternating sense of satisfaction and desperation of enjoying the lovely edinburgh's air, i really really miss.

sadly, with the sweet smoky taste of Edinburgh's air being absence, all the sweet memories of me being there is heavily suppressed, somewhere in my complex brain. i can see glimmers of it, i can hear it but i cant feel it. i can see a double Decker lothian bus crossing the north bridge passing me by, on a cold lonely night. but the experience is almost unreal, like it never happen before. i can see the roses in prinses garden, under the long scottish summer sun, and im sitting under the dark cold shade of a huge tree, listening to each steps of passers by, with the sounds of gravels ticking that it made. but i cant feel it.

i enjoy walking through KL Convention Center now. as it smells a lot like the king's building. sitting on the bench along the long walkway of KLCC, i can see the security staffs of swann building sorting the mails in their dark blue jumper, i can hear a girl talking with somebody through her mobile at the corner of the foyer, with another two random girls sitting there, waiting for a friend perhaps, or maybe for a tutorial session later that day. i can hear the sound of wood plane of the staircase in darwin bulding, and the old printing machine at the reception. and i can feel all of these, thanks to the king's building like smells of KLCC.

yes it has been a year. a short year indeed. though i gained 15kgs, and when totally blank on alternative splicing, it still feels like i just left einburgh yesterday, and is waiting for the summer break to end.

Kesesakkan lalulintas

2010-07-01T06:03:00.000+01:00

bluek. what a very lame excuse. and even worse, i was accused of being judgmental. hmm...thah is actually a new form of being jedgmental - judging others of being judgmental. muahaha....

i went to OU today to meet a friend. well the traffic was bad, especially at the kewajipan. and even worse, i took the wrong turn. but it wasnt bad enough to kill u suddenly while driving. or to make ur next one whole year a nightmare. and everybody is experiencing the same thing too.

Alhamdulillah

2010-06-03T04:12:00.001+01:00

hmmm....alhamdulillah. just got a msg and it is now confirmed that he is safe. and he will be back soon. suddenly feel like eating murni ss2. argh mee raja.

May Allah Save The Fleet...

2010-05-31T09:43:00.002+01:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Oh Allah most gracious most merciful. please save the fleet. save the freedom flotilla. protect them from what ever evil that are in right now. bless them, bless the ships, bless the helps, bless everything that are important to their struggle, their fight, their great effort right now.

amen.

Ahmad Wafi Mahmood Zuhdi

2010-05-30T02:51:00.000+01:00

happy birthday to you! i wish you a very happy successful life .and may every good things be on your side.

its been a while..yup. a very long while since we last talk. since i last heard from you. last time i remember you mentioned about Edinburgh being so freaking cold and that is it. that is all. and that was 6 months and 2 days ago.

i miss u. as a friend. as a housemate. as a roomate. sigh.

i know there is no way that you going to read this and for that, again, happy birthday.

ajmal oh ajmal

2010-05-17T02:13:00.004+01:00

how a boy who may or may not be called ajmal can ruin a 10 years worth of friendship.
well its not totally his fault. and its not totally mine or my best-friend's fault. just a misunderstanding. misunderstood.

the funny thing about this is that it once happened before, not long ago. and for that now im seriously questioning myself.have i changed lately or is he just being over sensitive.

come to think about it again, neither of us have changed.in any way. our friendship was always like this before. quarreling about things that even we ourselves were unsure about. but he always the one who gave way, and thus saving our friendship up till now.

i said sorry too much. no,not this time. no pledge for forgiveness from me. because i know im on the right side of this childish argument. do learn to cope with my senseless conversation, insensitive text msgs. its not my fault that u misinterpreted the exclamation mark.

hmmm..this post has nothing to do with ajmal. or whoever he is. its about the tiredness if me being blamed for everything bad that happen in our friendship. and its not my fault that one is too sensitive over anything.

Kekasihku dirisik orang.

2010-05-16T05:22:00.000+01:00

ah what to dooooooooooooo? just give up? aaaaaaaaaa

The Dream is Getting Stranger and Weirder

2010-05-14T02:33:00.002+01:00

saya mimpi abubakar alkatib mati kene tembak. aih. dan lebih memelikkan lagi mimpi itu, saya diberitahu mengenai kematian ini melalui raja mohd helmi. ah tidaaaaaaaaaak.sgt ganjil. they dont even know each other to begin with. ni semua gara2 tgk citer ip man sbb muke muira tu mcm bakar. hahahaha

so saya bagun pg2 dan terus on facebook. just to see kalau2 status kematian tu betul2 ade.alhamdulillah abubakar is not dead. masih sehat menyepak2 apekejadah bende tu yg i never seem to know apekah namanya. hehe

so saya doakan abubakar alkatib panjang umur.

oppsss i did it again!

2010-05-04T08:09:00.000+01:00

sigh...again, for the second time, i slept from 6pm and woke up 13 hours later. it was kinda ok when it happened lat time since i wasnt really feeling very well but this time there is no acceptable excuse wutsoeva. shait!! habes menggajah segalanya.

try not to repeat this again.

Strangest Dream

2010-05-03T04:26:00.002+01:00

huh. just bought a bed. and last night was my first night with my bed.

but i had a very strange dream. a very short 8 hours dream (time perception in dream and reality is a bit skewed).

i was hanging on a tiny rotten light brown shoe lace like rope, on a very high cliff. it was windy. and aaron aziz or was it sufian yusof..the face keep changing, was trying to convince me to jump. arghhh...tak masuk akal!!

Arghhh...

2010-04-24T04:40:00.000+01:00

in Kota Tinggi, Johor. SIMEX felda. meet a lot of nice peoples.

stayed in a crappy 70's hotel in desaru. hate the service but loves the scenery. mandi laut sampai lebam.

Happy bearthday!!!

2010-04-22T04:33:00.000+01:00

yeah it's my birthday. and its earth day. and therefore its my bEarthday!!! (credit to eylia, my long lost twin sis).

nothing much happened on the night, not like the past couples of years where i have all my friends around me, eating cakes bla bla bla. oh i miss jalilah idris at this point of time. she used to be my birthday planner. haha...in fact she's everybody's birthday planner.

hmmm....i'm sort of hide my birthday from facebook event list (or wuteva u guys call that thing nowadays). but i still got tonnes of wishes, thanks to those who remembered and thanks to facebook news feed. hahaha

i had bearthday dinner, very special one, with very special people, ben & eylia. we went to alexis the garden and of course its on ben. hahaha...i had a blast. thank you very much!!!

daaaaaaaa...

what about life

2010-04-20T04:56:00.002+01:00

hey.

lately mu financial is not really as great as what it used to be. never feel this poor. but still alhamdulillah for the daily rezeki that Allah continuously provided me with. thank you so much Allah.

is life is about money? cant deny that without money therell be no life but is that just it? nothing more? only about money?

just commit myself to a long term commitment and about to commit another one. itll need a lot of sacrifice.

yesterday i had a chance to talk about my future with my fellow work colleague and i am about to reconsider my reconsidered plan. thank you nini for the eye opening advices. heheh

all in all...its all about money so far. im still loking for better purpose of life and am pretty sure that it does not invole so much money.

Kebosanan Maksimum

2010-04-09T09:28:00.002+01:00

its 4.30 pm now. another 1 hour and the weekend starts. yeah. i am too sleepy to care about worksssss. recently TPM decided to banned us from using FB and YM and youtube. but funny enough they never actually block the site. and i personally think that its a trap. not that they can't detect me blogging here now, its just that i am too sleepy to care about that.

yeah its friday. and i finally realized the reason of my extreme sleepiness. i stayed up last night. but for a wrong reason. i balem eylia yunos for this. we went to the mines just to exchange our movie collections. and she happen to mysteriously owned a first volume of gLee season 1 dvd rip episodes. omg. i watched 10 eps last night and end up sleeping only at 3.00am. woke up in a very bad mood and i cant seem to find my ipod to play carole king's beautiful. ish

oh gLee. im totally in love with finn. he's awkward. hehehe. and i am totally in love with puck too. oh oh oh. oh btw i am kurt hummel in gLee. not rachel berry. hahha.....just ignore me now. this is my sleepiness talking.

oh im going back to dungun tonight. i called my mum the other day and she sobbingly complained about how all of his 4 sons living so far away withour coming back for quite a long time. luckily ben offered me a free ride to dungun tonight sine he got a case in Kt on sunday morning. i still think that the offer was meant for mahmud the other day but anyhu im just glad to get that free ride. yeah.

haih. i thought its already 5.30 but...sigh....

Crazy!

2010-03-09T08:33:00.000Z

just got back from Kuching. well that was 3 days ago. ehehe...thanks to ibrahim ahmad who voluntarily fetched me up from putrajaya central (only after being bribed with a kuching shirt).

yesterday i went to proton service to service my ban ban. ban banw as quite happy after the service which cost me RM134.70 (i always thought that is was free as stated, or mentioned by someone). out of nowhere ben called and later met up with him and Pierre Grenier at bangi old town white coffee kopitiam ( i heard that the mee that they used are imported from china, halal?)

we talked, we smoked, we eat, we laughed, we cried (out of laughing too much) then we planned. stupid..or rather crazy but fun plan. pierre grenier suggested that we all go out for late night movie the next day which was sunday. i on je since it involved pierre grenier.

then we went out on sunday night. i fetched ben from ampang (or rather pandan indah, arghh its confusing) then went straight to ara damansara to fetch pierre grenier. muah. we went to ou to watch any available movie (unfortunately, it was The Book of Crap..or was it Eli?..ah i just couldnt remember).

then we went to Murni (or shiog how tiong ahh i just couldt remember this too) in SS2 and lepaked there until it 4.30 am in the morning. i kinda forgot that monday is a working day after being in a free vacation in kuching for a week. sigh.

but it was all worth it. the kepenatan, the kemengantukkan and kesangapan that i feel now. ahahaha...looking forward to this kinda crazy activity again. it reminded me alot to my uni life. yeaha....i miss edinburgh (ooo not again)

boring

2010-02-27T02:29:00.002Z

in my room currently.
waiting for me mum to call. need to fetch her from masjid later.
got a flight to catch tonight. anyone free tonight feel free to fetch me at LCCT around 11pm
got another flight to catch tomorrow. anyone free tomorrow morning, feel free to send me off to KLIA
arghh...life is busy. currently very busy.
lots of traveling. my ban ban is already 5000km old. need his second service already just after a month.
wheres ambank wheres ambank. oh how i wish my loan can pay for itself.
i need a home but i aint homeless. just couple of RM richer than homeless..currently

haiyah

2010-01-18T07:34:00.001Z

supposedly
working time
need to finish all the ongoing costing
and the proposalssssss
how i hate new year
how i hate this

what's real?

2010-01-16T07:36:00.000Z

i'm wondering
which are real and which arent
is he a real person
or is he just my imagination
are the memories all made up
or it did really happened
then the pictures, emails, text msgs
what about that what about that
i am confuse so confuse i could die
i look up to sky now i know
its all just a lie
or maybe not
oh no

A Puppy, And A rainy day

2010-01-14T10:44:00.002Z

Yesterday
It was raining,
really heavily.
the clouds were so dark,
it looks almost like a deep sea,
floating weirdly, dripping water wetting the earth.

I was driving,
and it was cold.
as i turn down the aircond,
i saw a cute little abundant lonely puppy
cold, shivering on the roadside
i continue driving

today
it is still raining
and it is still the same floating deep blue see up above me
i was driving, again, on the same road
and at the same roadside,
i saw the puppy again,
only this time,
lying dead on the road

poor puppy

life after uni..

2009-12-02T05:57:00.000Z

it's not boring as commonly described. it's just hard to be explained in words. one time you like it. another time u don't. i miss my uni life, uni friends, uni everything. working is fun, fun in its own way. not like fun fun, but its fun.

Warkah Untuk Kamu...

2009-09-23T07:34:00.000+01:00

Assalamualaikum. Andai kamu sedang membaca warkah ini, Alhamdulillah, makanya kamu telah selamat sampai. Dan alhamdulillah Allah telah memakbulkan doa-doa hamba-Nya yang menyayangi kamu.

Seperti yang telah dijangka, pagi ini tidak akan menjadi seindah selalu. Tidak akan seindah pagi-pagi yang telah menyerikan hidup ini sepanjang 3 bulan yang lalu. Namun hidup mesti diteruskan. Kebahagiaan mesti terus di cari.

Tiada apa yang ingin diperkatakan, kerana tiada apa yang akan diperkatakan bakal mengubah takdir kejadian hidup kita ini. Hanya doa yang dapat kupanjatkan agar suatu hari, kita akan dapat bertemu kembali. Dan semoga kamu diberkati.

Selamat Hari Raya!

2009-09-20T07:38:00.000+01:00

Yay! It’s Hari Raya again! After 3 successive painfully enjoyfull Rayas in Edinburgh, I finally got a chance to celebrate these festive days (note the s) in Malaysia, and most importantly with my exasperatingly lovely family. Alhamdulillah, despite of our family being consecutively bombarded by deaths, Raya this year is still merrily celebrated with only a few exceptional teary moments. This is actually the first Raya without my late father around. It is a weebit (I miss Edinburgh) difficult especially for me mum. She cried so many times, mostly behind closed doors.

It is less tricky for me emotionally. Maybe I am well prepared for such circumstances by the previous experience of Raya away from my family. Or maybe my point of view about death is a little bit skewed thus making me less poignant than the others. Or maybe I’ve moved on. Afterall it has been 5 months already since my dad passed away.

Physically…well, it is kinda hard in a way. All the daging and ayam need to booked, kuih-kuih need to be sorted, and the dying old blue wira need to be looked after yada yada yada. All these are done by him before this and I all the time take it for granted. Now that he’s gone, my mum is liable and since I’m the only son available on that time, the responsibilities are automatically mine. Not to mention all the cleaning and decorating, which I usually glaringly volunteer myself in.

My home is crowdedly cramped by my mum, 3 giant sized brothers, a sister, 4 in-laws and 11 infuriating, aggravating, maddening, irritating, exasperating, nauseating nieces and nephews. Despite of the negative descriptions, all 21 of us, when together, are the most enjoying thing ever occurred in my life which make the Raya absolute complete.

All in all (I’m getting bored typing this), this Raya will be remembered. Well maybe because it is the first dad-less Raya but mainly because all of us are united once again under one roof, perhaps for the last time.

Epiphany

2009-09-19T07:35:00.001+01:00

All my siblings are here now. Tomorrow is the first day of Raya and all of us (not really) are busy preparing the rending, satay, kuah kacang, nasi impit, ketupat…(the list goes on). And my mum’s phone is currently busy receiving 100 upon 100 of forwarded Raya messages, which I personally think is less sincere and hypocritical, compared to personally typed sms or a short call. Reading all the messages, I figured it all contains Maaf Zahir & Batin, the most common Raya wishes.

What does this expression, or rather Raya slogan really means? Well the Zahir part is easier to explain, it is more about something that you can visibly see or feel, like lebam di muka of your friend that you heatedly punched, or your husband’s mustang that you scratched for not going back to your kampong for Raya. The Batin part is a weebit trickier. Somehow I am worried. How to explain this to my nephews or nieces if suddenly their innocent carefree immature and lazy brain (I used to think that kids don’t do thinking) asks about this? Growing up in a society that are somewhat fanatic about tenaga batin (with all the ali’s tongkat and farimah’s kacip in 1000 different selections of drinks, foods, creams yada yada yada…), I automatically relate the Batin part of the wish with…you know what. For me, this just doesn’t make any sense, not at all. Why there is a need to include the Batin part? Does everyone do the Batin indecency? Batin wrongdoing? With who? Your wife? Arghh mak confuse!

After 18 years (minus 6 years of my life, I don’t do thinking before 7 years old) of this absurd misconception about the Batin part of the Raya slogan I suddenly received a clear epiphany after reading an honest and truthful forwarded text from Firdaus. It is so clear that all this while the Batin part represent the unseen damages that someone has caused to others, the emotional damages that someone had done to others. Arghh…why am I so stupid? I should have known this way earlier!!!!! Arghhh…I’m pretty sure that others already well familiar with this simple fact and probably monologing about my stupid clumsiness.

Salam Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin.

Genosid Bahasa? Neraka Apakah Itu?

2009-08-23T07:23:00.001+01:00

Tempoh hari Penulis menerima satu pesanan ringkas dari seorang rakan. Sedang rakan Penulis asyik bersiar-siar di sekitar deretan kedai di Kuala Lumpur, beliau telah terjumpa sebuah majalah dengan tajuk utamanya “Genosid Bahasa” megah bangga terpampang di sebuah toko buku yang dilewatinya.

Agak mengelirukan bagi Penulis kerana Penulis tidak mengalami sendiri kejadian ini. Tidak diketahui samada rakan Penulis sempat membaca sedikit sebanyak isi kandungan penulisan itu dan oleh kerana itu tidaklah dapat Penulis memberi kesimpulan secara mutlak mengenai keganjilan tajuk penulisan ini. Apa yang bakal Penulis ketengahkan di sini tiada kena mengena dengan hasil tulisan tersebut, hanya sekadar apa yang terlintas di pemikiran Penulis sebaik menerima pesanan ringkas dari rakan Penulis tempoh hari.

Genosid Bahasa. Genosid (Genoside), jika dirujuk kepada Kamus Dewan atau Kamus Dwibahasa terbitan Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka, bermaksud penghapusan sesuatu bangsa atau kaum dengan cara pembunuhan beramai-ramai, atau menyebabkan penghidupan menjadi amat sukar. Secara dasarnya, agak rumit untuk mengaitkan perkataan genosid ini dengan bahasa melainkan jika bahasa itu sendiri dianggap sebagai suatu makhluk yang hidup.

Walaubagaimanapun bukan ini yang menjadi permasalahannya sekarang. Jika diteliti dengan lebih mendalam, tajuk penulisan itu sendiri telah menggambarkan betapa tenatnya masalah yang dihadapi oleh bahasa ibunda kita ini, yakni Bahasa Melayu (Penulis lebih selesa menggunakan nama Bahasa Melayu berbanding Bahasa Malaysia). Kebelakangan ini banyak pihak yang lantang bersuara menentang penggunaan bahasa selain dari Bahasa Melayu dalam perlaksanaan pembelajaran di negara kita, dengan alasan ianya akan merosakkan kedaulatan Bahasa Melayu. Dan dalam masa yang sama juga ada pihak yang dengan sewenang-wenangnya me”Melayu”kan bahasa asing dengan tujuan memperkasakan Bahasa Melayu itu sendiri.

Pada pandangan peribadi Penulis, tidak salah jika sekiranya bahasa asing digunakan sebagai bahasa pengatar dalam matapelajaran tertentu. Agak mustahil untuk ianya meluputkan jati diri Bahasa Melayu dek kekerapan penggunaanya dalam kehidupan hari-hari. Sebaliknya, ini dapat sepatutnya dapat memudahkan penguasaan pelajar kerana umum telah sedia maklum penggunaan istilah-istilah bukan Melayu yang meluas dalam perkembangan ilmu-ilmu ini. Namun jika tujuan sebenar penggunaan bahasa-bahasa asing ini dalam pembelajaran adalah untuk meningkatkan kemahiran pelajar dalam menguasai bahasa asing tersebut, maka ianya adalah merupakan satu langkah yang kurang bijak. Bahasa seharusnya dipelajari secara khusus dan teliti dengan latihan pertuturan yang kerap dan bukannya secara sampingan melalui matapelajaran yang lain. Tiada gunanya memperjudikan perkembangan pendidikan di Malaysia untuk mengembangkan kemahiran berbahasa asing.

Apa yang lebih tenat bagi Penulis ialah kemasukkan secara mendadak perkataan-perkataan dari bahasa Ingggeris ke dalam penggunaan Bahasa Melayu dan apa yang lebih memualkan, ianya diperakui oleh pihak-pihak tertentu yang sepatutnya memainkan peranan dalam memelihara kedaulatan Bahasa Melayu. Lihat sahaja kepada tajuk penulisan di atas. Sewajarnya, kita perlu memperjuangkan kedaulatan Bahasa Melayu dengan memperluaskan penggunaan perkataan-perkataan yang sahih akar umbi ke”Melayu”annya. Agak pelik jika penyerapan perkataan-perkataan asing ke dalam Bahasa Melayu ini dianggap sebagai usaha murni memperjuangkan kedaulatan Bahasa Melayu. Bagi Penulis, inilah yang sebenarnya dimaksudkan dengan “Genosid Bahasa”.

Memperkasakan penggunaan Bahasa Melayu tidak bermaksud untuk membolehkan semua bangsa di dunia ini memahami Bahasa Melayu. Namun jika ini adalah makna tunjangnya, maka bagi Penulis Bahasa Melayu sudah cukup perkasa. Pernah terjadi ketika Penulis masih menuntut di luar negara, seorang rakan sekelas Penulis berbangsa Poland dengan mudahnya memahami isi kandungan laporan berita akhbar atas talian berbahasa Melayu bahana pencemaran bahasa luar yang amat jelas ketara di dalam penulisan berita tersebut. Penulis keliru samada untuk berasa bangga atau malu ketika itu. Mungkin ianya Bahasa Malaysia namun tidak sekali-kali ianya adalah Bahasa Melayu.

Secara peribadinya Penulis berpendapat bahawa Bahasa Melayu hanya akan dapat diperkasakan sekiranya penggunaan perkataan-perkataan Melayu tulin dapat dikekalkan dan diperluaskan samada dalam percakapan mahupun dalam penulisan serta penerbitan. Tidak dinafikan usaha ini sememangnya sukar kerana secara dasarnya kejadian serta sejarah perkembangan Bahasa Melayu tidak berlaku sendiri malah turut kuat dipengaruhi oleh bahasa-bahasa utama dunia yang lain. Namun, pe”Melayu”an perkataan-perkataan asing yang giat dilakuan sekarang bukan sahaja sudah sememangnya jelas nyata tidak dapat memperkasakan Bahasa Melayu malah memusnahkan lagi kedaulatannya.

Di kesempatan ini Penulis ingin memohon maaf kepada Penulis asal “Genosid Bahasa” di atas pengunaan tajuk penulisan beliau dalam penulisan ini. Sekali lagi ingin Penulis tekankankan, ia tiada kena mengena dengan penulisan beliau, hanya sekadar luahan pendapat peribadi Penulis berkenaan permasalahan yang sering menghantui pemikiran ini. Penulis seharusnya berterima kasih kepada beliau kerana dengan izin Allah penulisannya telah mencetuskan ilham kepada Penulis. Penulis juga berharap untuk membaca karya tersebut di masa hadapan untuk memahami secara lebih mendalam apa yang cuba disampaikan oleh beliau.

Wassalam

Catatan: Penulis berpeluh memerah otak untuk menghasilkan penulisan ini. Sesunggguhnya amat mencabar untuk menulis dengan menggunakan 100 peratus perkataan Bahasa Melayu. Penulis juga tidak memiliki ilmu yang tingi berkenaan peraturan-peraturan tatabahasa Bahasa Melayu dan memohon maaf di atas segala kesilapan yang telah dilakukan.

it's just a simple math!!!!

2009-06-27T00:23:00.002+01:00

sigh...today i spent my precious half an hour arguing with a friend of mine about some simple mathematical problem. i knew from the beginning that i am in the right good clear winner side and logically speaking the problem is not that really hard to understand and solve. i'm just afraid that the other party won't get the idea behind all the simple calculation. Ya Allah, aku memohon kepada Mu agar kau bukakan minda dan hati sahabatku itu. ameeeeeeeeeeeeeen.....

kabus kabus dan kabus lagi...

2009-06-25T00:27:00.000+01:00

ever watch the mist, the fog or ape2 cerite seram scifi yg melibatkan kabus2 tebal ya amat? hmmmm skarang ni edinburgh is just the same like cities2 yg digambarkan dlm all the movies. despite of skarang ni summer and mentari menyinar membakar kulit kepala siapa shj yg melaluinye, kepanasan tu tak tahan smpi ke malam. pukul 10 je kaus start la terbentuk and amazingly dpt tgk kabus tu bergerak ke arah kabus berkepekatan rendah. nampak la sempadan kawasan kabus/tak berkabus tu.hehe..tatau camne nak describe dah. jarak penghilatan sgtlah rendah, even medical school kat depan rumah ni pun dah tak nampak. seraaaaaaaaam....dah seminggu dah seraaaaaaaaaaam..hahaha....

tp seram2 pun sure akan tertidur nyenyak smpi la kul 8 pg keesokkannya harinya, when the stupid downstairs neighbour start menjerit2 "edward...edward..."(ataupun siapalah nama die) dari tepi jalan. sial betul (amek kau kene sumpah).it happen every single morning since aku duduk umah ni sejak 7 jun yg lalu. arggggggggg...when is the stupid guy yg menjerit2 tu learn to buzz the door or at least bring his/her (kdg2 laki kdg2 pompuan) own f(uknowat) keys!!!! and bilelah si edward or sape2 je nama die tu learn to open the bloody mackerel dooooooooooor!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.........and one more thing, ade nenek tua tinggal kat bawah. sian nenek tu dah tua and memakan masa sejam dgn jutaan cungapan dan pemberhentian setiap kali nak naik tangga setingkat tu. tp tu bukan masalahnye. nenek yg sgt dikasihani tu selalu terkencing dek tak tahan sbb lama sgt naik tangga.in fact, everytime die naik tangga tu die akan terkencing. takde la nak menyalahkan the poor old nenek. nak salahkan anak2 die yg bodoh pg sewa rumah bertangga dan juga sgt bodoh tak pnah tergerak hati nak cuci kekencin tu. OMGIGP!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

hmm..goodluck to firdaus and wan next year. argh tensen

Empty Decoration

2009-06-18T21:26:00.002+01:00

yerp...im currently listening to Indecisive's Empty Decoration... in loop. about 10000 times since yesterday dull and soggy afternoon. sigh...kata nak move on tp still dgr lelagu yang actually sgt not helping malah membuakkan lagi rasa kebosanan kat edinburgh ni.

its 18th of June. is it really? wah wah..it's been almost three weeks since everyone went back. its been empty here. empty bloody holy mackerel day.haha...seriously i have no better thing to do. i lonelily refreshed the facebook window on my laptop, which i never close for the past three days, every freaking 3 minutes. thats how lonely and bosan i am right now.

tak sangka that it has been 4 years. well almost for years since i arrived here. and now its time for me to leave which is knda sad. 4 years is a very long time. almost 16.7 % of my lifetime. and thats actualy a lot, sgt. luckyly i am growing older day after day and hopefully continue to age so that the percentage will shrink and in no time, this wont be as much hurting as it is currently.

i met a lot of good friends here. good friends that come and go that is. thank you very much. thank you for the wonderful 16.7% lifetme that i share with you. aih...

Innalillah...

2009-04-14T01:29:00.000+01:00

ayahanda kesayangan saya telah pulang ke rahmatullah pada 13 april 2009. semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya dan mengampunkan segala dosa2nya. amiinn. alhamdulillah segalanya berjalan lancar. telah pun selamat dikebukikan di tanah perkuburan kg dato' abu bakar baginda, bangi. alhamdulillah juga kerana Allah telah menamatkan segala penderitaan yang telah ayah alami. Al-fatihah

Misery

2009-03-02T23:15:00.002Z

saya berkelakuan agak menjengkelkan kebelakangan ini. mungkin ramai yang membenci kejengkelan saya ini namun biarkanlah mereka terus membenci. tiada gunanya saya terus disukai oleh mereka. mereka langsung tidak cuba untuk mengetahui perkara yang sebenar. mereka langsung tidak bertanya walau sepatah. dan amat menyedihkan apabila mereka membuat kesimpulan yang melulu lalu mengambil keputusan untuk membenci saya. tak mengapa, saya akan kekal menjengkelkan diri saya dan biarlah mereka hanyut dengan anggapan meraka itu.

mungkin saya tidak merasai sebarang kerugian.mungkin juga ya. tapi yang saya paling pasti, mereka tidak terjejas walau sedikit pun. gelak tawa mereka semakin girang semenjak saya menjengkelkan diri. seolah olah mereka semua gembira melihat saya sebegini. mereka juga semakin jelas menjauhkan diri. tidak menyapa walau sepatah. dan mengeluarkan kenyataan-kenyataan yang memeritkan hati saya pabila mendengarnya. tapi tak mengapa. saya redha. saya memilih untuk diperlakukan sebegini.

saya tahu, dan saya amat pasti, pelbagai tohmahan dan tuduhan telah mereka lakukan di belakang saya. dan kehadiran saya disambut dengan kedinginan yang teramat sangat. mungkin mereka amat membenci saya. tapi tak mengapa. bukan kali pertama saya di benci. bukan kali pertama saya disisihkan. dan yang pasti ini bukanlah penyisihan yang paling hebat pernah saya lalui. bencilah diri ini. teruskan membenci saya dengan apa jua alasan yang anda percaya.

tentu amat seronok apabila mereka semua berkumpul dan mengeluarkan teori masing-masing tentang kejadian saya. saya tahu. saya dengar. malah saya pernah melihatnya. berseronoklah kalian. sekurang-kurangnya kalian memihak kepada sesuatu. berkumpul dan mengata tentang seseorang itu lebih menyenangkan dari di kata oleh orang-orang yang sedang berkumpul. berkumpul dan mengata itu lebih seronok dari berusaha mengetahui perkara yang sebenar. setidak-tidaknya, mereka dapat merasakan yang diri mereka itu lebih penting dan disukai dari orang yang ditohmah itu. tidak mengapa.teruskanlah. teruskanlah dengan kegembiraan yang sementara itu. dunia ini tidak statik.dunia ini berputar. begitulah jugak kehidupan. sebentar di atas sebentar pula di bawah. syukur ke hadrat Allah saya pernah merasai kedua-duanya.

sedih juga diri ini memikirkan orang-orang yang saya anggap sebagai sahabat selama ini memperlakukan saya sebegini. namun bukanlah salah mereka 100 peratus. salah saya juga kerana memilih untuk berdiam diri. namun bukan juga salah saya 100 pratus. salah mereka juga memilih untuk tidak mengetahui.

saya sudah berusia 23 tahun. beberapa hari lagi akan menjangkau 24. 24 tahun bukanlah satu tempoh yang panjang. namum dalam tempoh 24 tahun yang singkat itu saya telah mengalami suka ria dan duka. dan saya memilih untuk mengagungkan kedukaan saya kali ini sebagai ujian kepada persahabatn kita semua. terima kasih kerana pernah menjadi sahabat saya. terima kasih di atas segala pengajaran yang telah kalian berikan. terima kasih. bencilah saya. teruskan membenci. suatu hari nanti kalian akan tahu juga perkara yang sebenarnya. insyaAllah

09-02-2009

2009-02-09T02:12:00.002Z

yep yep yep...

hari ini hari yg sangat menggembirakan. thanks to Allah for such a grrrreeeeaaaaatttt day!!!!

first time rasa gembira tulus dr hati dlm 2 3 minggu ni. after everything yg tgh berlaku dlm kehidupan secara peribadinya mahupun kepada kemanusiaan secara umumnya..hehehe...

rasenye harini mcm hari jd kwn aku tp mcm ala2 konfuse dgn birthday2 org2 lin...sorry la kalu silap tarikh but anyway the thoughts that always counts kan kan kan...happy birthday kepade sesiapa yg birthday arini.

harini for the first time dlm beribu2 tahun kot..(saje hyperbola) aku dpt bual2 dgn my favourite gossip circle...hahaha..spent almost 3 hours with them ckp mcm mcm dr yg benar2 berlaku sampailah kepade prediction jek kepade memende yg tak pernah berlaku. abes la jugak 2 pints coffee aku taram sesambil mengupdate database aku ni. seroooonok nye dpt ckp2 dgn korangs....i can't wait for our trip togehtehr2 gituw. name trip dah sah mencari cinta lama...hahahahahahahaha

pastuh suddenly (takde la suddenly sgt pun..mmg dah bajet) snow turun dari langit dgn mendadak dadaknya. seperti snow-crazed stoat goes beserk nye kami anak2 malaysia bermain snow. hahaha...melompat sane sini.biarlah gengren jari jemari pun. jap nak kire jari cukup ke tak. eh jari cukup telinga plak takd eseblah.hahaha....tp mmg seronok gile la main. hopefully ni bukanlah lah last time kami stoat2 ni boleh main snow same2. harap2 pasnih 10 inches snow plak hahaha...again kepade adik2 sekelian terima kasih sbb sukarela kene serang dgn saya.sorry la korg kene genyeh. aku kan berpeengelaman...hhahahaa

anyway balik jek rumah terus hantar email kat supervisor kate aku bad affected by the bad weather. tehers no way that aku nak jalan2 merentas desa kat roslin tu dlm snow2 melepek2 ni. mahu 15 kali jatuh dulu br sampai. silap2 tergaras dagu siku sume. aish aish.

wah wah wah..nak tidur dgn perasaan gembira. nak mimpi yg indah indah. nak mimpi org yg comel. dan harap besok dpt lah lagi menikmati nikmat Allah kat dunia ni. tp kalau usia ni tak panjang..harap semua maafkan lah dosa2 saya. ameeeeeeeeen

Alhamdulillah

2009-02-06T15:00:00.000Z

Alhamdulillah keperitan memikirkan keputusan peperiksaan tak perlu ditanggung lagi...
Alhamdulillah keputusan yang terumum memberangsangkan...
Alhamdulillah kini saya kembali meneruskan perjuangan...

Hanya tinggal 4 bulan sebelum semua permainan dunia ini berakhir...
Hanya tinggal satu peperiksaan sebelum kesemuanya tamat....
Hanya tinggal 5 essay dan sebuah projek lagi...

Hari semakin hampir
Untuk diri ini mengucapkan
Selamat Tinggal

Selamat Tinggal

2009-02-04T14:43:00.000Z

hmmm...Innalillah wa inna lillahi rojiun...

definitely this week is filled with death.

2 very good peoples and a lovely cat

Semua kebaikkan akan ada balasannya

Keputusan Kuiz Nonsense!

2009-01-20T22:18:00.005Z

hehehehe...sekarang, despite of kesibukan semasa yg sedang di alami, i came out with a quite nonsense idea to conduct a simple survey which involve 10 of my most adorable edinburgh good friends. mereke2 yg malang itu (aqtar, wawan, firdaus, wan, suz, jal, mar, mai, farah and eli) telah ditujahkan satu soalan yg simple dan dipaksa memberi reason utk jawapan yg di beri. hehehe...at first i tot this would be fun and sume org akan excited menjawab serta memberi hujah2 masing2 mcm yg dierg sume slalu lakukan. well mende ni bukan sgtlah pun utk akutp more tu melihat reaksi dan response serta sokongan rerakan terhadap diri ku.hahaha....agak diluar jangkaan jugaklah bile ade yg tak merespon langsung. tp takpe.paham2.masing busy dgn kehidupan masing (menaip sambil nyanyi lagu syahdu utk meningkatkan mood pasrah)

soalannya berbunyi begini:

" you make me feel better about things than anybody else but you dont even do anything" - kepada siapakah Afiq menujukan kenyataan ini?

well comelkan soklanya...actually itu adelah petikan dari filem Junebug. biasela aku suke cilox dialog muvie2 kiut ni. kawaii....

below are the responses that i recieved from them!

Jalilah Idris

First respon Jal ialah "apekah"..jal seakan tak biase plak dgn soklan2 dramatik ni kan.well jal juge ade mengatakan yg mende ni tak fun for her as far as shes concern which sedikit sebanyak menyebabkan aku tergamam sketika tatau nak respon balik kat die. but she did answered.malangnya jal tak diberi arahan utk memberi reason terhadap asnwer2 nye maka result social experiment ni agak sedikit affected. dgn tanpa sbrg alasan dinyatakan jal telah menjawab Wan & Firdaus...hurmm....

Mardiana Asmuni

kak mar kite telah memberi respon yg neutral dan selamat. die juge berjaya menjawab tanpa memberi sebarang respon dr segi emosi. mase bace msg mar kat facebook, not even trace amount of emosi diberikan. mar ko mmg layak jd pengadil.nampak ciri2 sorg wanita yg adil. tp gedix2 tu ade la sket sbb bile aku suruh bg jawapan yg lebih romantik sket die nak suggest name sdr tp since dah ade balak so die tak jwb diri sdr. jawapan mar yg sgt selamat tu ialah mak dan abah. mcm nak reject je jawapan ni sbenarnye sbb as far as i'm concer mak abah aku telah melakukan segala2 nya utk memastikan aku happy dan bagus.so takle la kate Mak & Abah aku tak wat pape but still make me feel better about things kan kan kan...heheh..tp accepted gak la jawapan ni.

Firdaus Amaran

anak mamaran ni despite of telah diberikan bermacam2 maklumat ttg diri aku luar dan dalam sejak kenal 3 bulan ni telah memberikan jawapan di luar jangkaan aku. tetapi beliau harus lah dipuji sbb jawab dgn pantas.terdapat juga rasa ingin tahu dlm msg2 yg die bg.hahaha....dgn bangganya firdaus jawab dirinya sendiri ( Firdaus ) sbg org yg kununnya aku akan tujukan kenyataan tu.hahaha.alasan yg diberi ialah "Well,I saw the status after our wee conflict two days ago.So I presumed it's directed at me"...hahhaa....firdaus..kalulah wee conflict tu mengaffect kehidupan i, takde keje la i nak bg kenyataan sweet2 ni kat u plak kan. anyway taide sbrg rasa keras di ambil terhdp ape yg telah terjd tempoh hari. anggaplah tu circle of life.

Suzliza Shukor

Maharani ni dgn segala sifar kemaharaniannya telah menjawab "of course moi. who else b*****" (dalam erti kata lain dirinya sendiri lah sebagai jawapan). baginda juga telah meminta talian hayat diberikan agar tidak menimbulkan garis2 penuaan kat muke dek berfikir utk menjawab soklan yg apparently sukar ni.haha..setelah diberi penerangan kali kedua, baginda maharani telah memutuskan utk tidak melayan lagi karenah aku lalu tak membalas msg tu dah. aku jugak telah dikurniakan darjah "peasant boy" bahana quiz ni. so aku assumelah die jwb Suzliza. mcm tau2 jek takde org nak jwb name die.hahaha

Eliana Saffie

pade mulenye eli telah menawab soklan aku dgn sebuah soklan lagi. dan apebila ditanya balik die jawab Allah. sbg tuhan yg maha berkuasa Allah lah yg memiliki diri aku ini dan semua yg aku miliki dan semuanyalah kat bumi ni. and no further komen about that. fyi mar pun mule2 bg jawapan yg sama. pastuh selepas diperkemaskan semula keadaan eli jwb Wafi dgn alasan kitorg sgt rapat mase wafi ade kat sini dulu. begitu kuat ingatan eli. well tak perlu pun ingatan yg kuat utk igt.hahaha...comel jek.eli jwb soklan ni dgn rasa penuh perhatian spt die mendgr aku bace status2 bebudak dlm facebook mase cuti arituh.hahaha....

Aqtar Mohamed

aqtar menang la kuiz ni if aku wat kiraan masa.die jwb pantas gile.lom smpt taip abes pun soklan die dah send jawapan. u mmg dramatik. dan suke exegerate juge. aqtr jawab Wan tp lupe plak ape alasan die. cume yg aku igt aqtar nye tahap keexegeratan tu sgtlah tinngi. if only i can remember ape yg aqtar ckp psal matahari terbit wutsoeva tu. isk isk isk...hurmm...dah makin pendek plak entry n since dah nak last2 ni..malas lak nak tulis...isk isk isk...

Ridzuan Idris

kalau kuiz ni pemenang ikut sape yg plg tak byk soal wan boleh la mng kot. jawapan straight foward je. emosi pun minimum. tatau la ape mood die mase jwb soklan ni. kalu takde "hehe" dlm msg die maka takdelah sbrg emosi dlm jawapan wan. tp papepun wan jawab objek yg plg comel kat rumah aku ni..haha...wan jawab Uri Uri ..haha...terdiam jugak la aku bc jawapan ni. alasan wan jwb uri2 ialah sbb uri2 aku asik gune uri2 nye gambar jek lately. comel la uri2..hehehe...(tetibe)

Redzuan Dahlan

wawan leh menang kategori plg enthu ye. bukan setakat memberi jawapan. die juge telah melakukan follow up dgn menganjurkan forum bersama rakan2nya yg lain. tak pasti la ape sebab die buat discussion tu. maybe nak memastikan jawapan die betul ataupun saje2 curious nak tau jawapan org lain.hahaha. wawan jawab Firdaus sbb die kate aku rapat dgn firdaus and mungkin aku ngan firdaus gaduh2 pastu aku kaurkan statement tu. hahaha...firdaus skarang u sounds more like my boyfren plak dah.hahah...tetapi menurut sumber2 yg boleh dipercayai, wawan mulenye turut mengkonsider Wan sbg jawapan tp gagal mencari sebab2 yg kukuh utk menyokong jawapan tu.hahaha...harus ke?

Maisarah Sallehuddin

the first and only respon that i got from he was "takde keje". mungkin mai dah matang skarang maka takmau dah layan kerje2 tak berfaedah ni. takpe lah.malas nak bg hujah.

Farah Farhanah

farah plak smpi skang tak bg respon.mungkin die busy juga.

Conclusion

secara tuntasnya saya agak berpuas hati jugaklah dgn usaha2 mereke nak meluangkan 10 plg lame pun 10 minutes of their time utk aku. terima kasih utk 10 minute korg tu, hanya Allah tahu betapa bermaknanya 10 minute buat aku. bukan aku nak tau jawapan nye pun. aku just nak tau kesangupan korg melayan karenah aku. rindu kat korg semua semoga jumpa kat usrah next week....muax...thanks!!!!

Just Another Day

2009-01-18T02:00:00.003Z

i tried to download some movies but my rapidshare just expired. it's not my turn to renew anyway and i hate to ask my supposedly rakan kongsi in this thing to renew it. i think i shud just change the password and have the account for myself instead. lazy fat ass. always mcm ni.

today ade usrah. well i would rather call it as get together with a little religious input than usrah2. taklah too little sgt but i think its enough to remind me of who i am and what's my main goal in life. i like it that way.simple and informal. and bersesuaian dgn my current development of ilmu2 kerohanian. after usrah, activity2 yg kurang productiviti (according to firdaus). tgk klip2 sengal from aqtar's brother, talking about cute and memorable family matters, eating lots of junk food and many more which from my point of view are more productive than playing mafia or habole. rugi u firdaus tak dpt input.

My Very Own 14th January 2009

2009-01-14T20:24:00.002Z

6.18 am - woken up by the disturbingly loud nature of the Lori Sampah's sound, but luckily my eardrums desensitized quikly and i felt asleep within 2 seconds

6.30 am - my samsung armani shaken the entire flat off...snoozed for i don't know how many times until....

8.38 am - hancur sudah..subuh definitely gajah...sigh..

8.44 am - nice hot shower with my favourite herbal essences chinese ginger shampoo and conditioner, dove shower gel and expired safi balqis orange scrub that wafi bought about 4 years ago...rahsia kecantikkan mak! sorry to my flatmate for using your colgate without your permission for this past week.

9.15 am - had breakfast: last night left over nescaffe and crunchy nuts. cheked my emails, facebook, myed bla bla bla....

9.31 am - ran for the king's building lothing bus 41 across the slippery spooky square wich i seem to not remember it's name at this moment...

9.39 am - 4 minutes delayed bus 41 finally arrived. i thanked the bus driver for not being on time this time around...

9.49 am - arrived in KB. saw afifah for the first time after a year (was it really that long eh?) but i decided to use my pura2 tak perasan if come acrooss another malay protocol.

9.57 am - arrived at Swann building room 229 together with natasha cain. got a loud warm welcome from Kasia and less warm, unwelcoming welcome from jal and elly..hahah...mentang2lah aku tak caucasian enough...

10.10 am - Bruce Ward started talking and my mind automatically wondered around.it started to go across the room, slowly across the world. i think i was in prague when suddenly the briefing ends. then i realized i got like 4 1500 words essays to be completed together with a 10 pages lit review in just one month. i wan't to kill myself but now im just too busy.

11.03 am - went to computer lab with one main goal : to abuse the free printing service

12.01 pm - lunch with jal, elly and tim at Kb house. had a very hard and cheap fish fillet with a tasteless chips. i refuse to call it fish and chips because as far as i'm concern, it wasn't

1.30 pm - went to surau. no details provided. owh.i met abubakar on my way to surau. he's getting skinnier. sakit kot. my prays goes to bakar may he become buffier than ever.muahahaha

2.09 - wah its getting lame now after 14 hours of 14 th january 2009. went to the honours room.tried to finish my lentivirus journalsss (emphasis on the multiple Ss) but obviously attemp failed after iris come and whining (she wasn't actually) bout her lab works.

4.00 pm - safety talk. i managed to finish three quarters of my journal (no S..sigh...)

4.41 pm - shuttle bus back to town.home here i come...

5.09 pm - arrived at my beloved yet tongkanged room. i forgot to turn on the heater and as a consequence my room became the coldest point in edinburgh. staright away i downloaded american idol.

5.17 pm - started watching American Idol 8 - Arizona

5.22 pm - pakcik meter letrik came to get the electric meter reading. well thats kinda wierd. he never came before.

6.52 pm - after some laughes and tears, and a tube of pringles, and a pint full of nescaffe, the show ended. thinking of going to aqtar's place but....

6.56 pm - chat with wan. posted to him one nice link that i thought he should listen.

7.16 pm - started to finish my lentivirus journal so that i can start with a new one.....sigh so hard to do...

9.08 pm - managed to finish the journal and try to open a new one but instead i stucked writting this entry. then i decided to go to aqtar's just to make a point to him that i'm not biased.haha..but i am actually.....hahahahahaha

10.42 pm - after half periuk of daging masak kicap, hairspray and enchanted, i went back to my room and continue writing this entry.isk isk isk

11.09 pm - finish writing. just another 51 minutes left..opsss...now only 50 minutes left before my 14th january 2009 ended.i guest nothing much will happen after this before i go to sleep.actually this is pretty much what happen in my life everyday lately.owh owh owh....

daaaaaa daaaaaaaaaa....

i'll always pray for you.

2009-01-14T12:37:00.001Z

hurmm...now everybody are talking about what happen in Gaza this recent times. its not that i don't want to talk about it.i just don't know what to talk about. everything that currently happen seem like a night mares to me, only that it involves real human being. no word can describe the pain, fear and desperation that our fellow friends in Gaza are facing through right now. i just can't sit around doing nothing when at least 2 peoples were killed every hour of this past 21 days. i've marched, ive prayed, i,ve done everything that i could yet nothing changes. but never give up and never lose hope. never lose faith and never stop trying. we can plan and god make plans too, and His plans are always best.

" Ya Allah, selamatkanlah hamba-hamba Mu di bumi Gaza, berikanlah mereka kekuatan, hentikanlah segala bencana yang sedang mereka tempuhi dan berikanlah balasan yang setimpal ke atas rejim zionis.amin...."

Down Down Down

2009-01-12T22:42:00.002Z

it feels a bit wierd, suddenly perasaan resah mcm2 baru first day kat skolah asrama dtg, kene paksa diri tidur walaupun tak mengantuk and rasa mcm tak mau esok tu dtg but at the same time nak hari ni berlalu dgn cepatnya. sgtlah down utk memikirkannya byk2.

bangun pagi mesti terpikir yg i actually got 1 lesser day to be with my frens here. isk isk isk. kalu ikutkan hati takmo berpisah jek dgn sape2 pun.kalu boleh tu nak bertebeng jek kat semua org. ahh syahdunye berair bijik mate.tp malang skali sume org pun ade kapasiti masa yg terhad utk aku. sume pun ade kewajipan diri memasing tuk dipenuhi. plus, siapalah aku ni disisi mereke. omg...not that thing again.stop stop stop.

actually hari ni was a far better day for me than semalam yg cilake menyedut. suprisingly bangun pg td dgn sgtlah a very fat good moodnya wpun tido mlm td resah mcm sial.mungkin sbb bantal busuk aku (taning) telah di basuh dan aku sgt menyesal membasuhnya kerana baunya kini mcm ariel 30. sgtlah tak syiok utk tidur ala2 hilang segala rasa kesan kasih sygkat bantal tu. ah kejam. tp actually smlm mmg hari yg buruk, jauh lebih buruk dr membasuh bantal busuk. mungkin sbb graviti bulan sgt kuat lalu telah mempengaruhi tekanan bendalir dlm otak aku yg telah sediakala rungsing ni.

hurmmm...yg lepas tu lupekan la.

yey hari ni first day kat roslin. it was far better dr ape yg aku anticipated kan. bus journey pun dah tak terasa sebegitu panjang mcm2 mase induction day dulu. and suasana taklah seawkward mana yg aku duk bygkan before. cume mase coffee break (which started 10 minutes after i arrived) was a bit janggal. ade 8 org yg semuanya scienctist dokter belake kumpul satu corner dgn aku satu2nye undergrad hingusan kat situ. luckyly dierg tak bercerita pasal semua kekompleksan ujikaji2 mereke instead diorg cerita pasal anjing mereka mengejar tupai, ayah mereka menembak tupai dan squirrel pie.

kat roslin aku dpt sebuah office yg kiut and my office mate bernama dr. douglas valey yg juga merangkap supervisor aku.isk isk isk.mujur la die busy kehulu kehilir maka bilik tu mcm aku punye jugakla. pastu ade sebijik laptop dell yg butang deletenya sgt random smpi aku tak tau kat ne.susah plak nak koordinate jari. dan dgn semangnya selepas waktu pejabat (cey cey) aku telah bershopping membeli mug and coaster utk bersaing dgn mereka2 disitu.muahahaha

ahhh bosan plak syok2 sendiri kaat sini. tapi takpe.atleast aku dpt jugak luahkan rasa happy aku. nak share kat kwn2 semua pun busy and there's a great chance yg dierg takle appriciate kehappyan aku ni.hik hik hik....

You've Got A Friend - Carole Kings

2009-01-11T23:49:00.000Z

When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

If the sky above you
Grows dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind begins to blow
Keep you head together
And call my name out loud
Soon you'll hear me knocking at you door

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there

Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

Now I'm stuck with Carole Kings. Each time i switched my tiny greeny ipod on, i will play Carole Kings's songs...oh my oh my....i like " Beautiful " better but i posted this lyrics instead just because i always wish that somebody would sing this to me for real, not just by Carole Kings from my playlist.

False Hope

2009-01-10T16:32:00.000Z

At one point i thought that i'm gonna give up this blog but as now i'm getting lonely this thing is the only thing that keep me going. well at least i don't have to keep all my feelings to myself anymore. at least i know that i can write it here and get away with it. yeah.

i don't know why, despite the fact that i have many good friends here, still i feel like being deserted in a way. i laughed, i smiled, but deep inside none of the expression valid, it just doesn't make sense. not in any way.

everytime when i feel like sharing or doing something with anyone, i started to doubt myself. will anyone appriciate me as equal if not more? will they laugh? will they remember? oh i'm so in a state of hating myself for thinking wierdly. it's not that i hate my friends. nothing like that. i'm just being stubbornly wierd. i can't think straight at the moment.

no one will will like me, not anymore if i continue being this way. no one will treat me better. i realized this thing quite well now but to change the way i always are is almost impossible. it its actually possible but its nothing like switching the light on and off. its far more complicated.

come to think about it again, false hope is not an appropriate title for this entry. in fact nothing written here make any sense what so ever. just an excuse for me to whine aboute myself. just a reason for me to feel bad about everything good that always happen in front of me. oh afiq stop whining. stop being such a cry baby.

update yg haram bosan

2009-01-09T17:06:00.000Z

wah wah wah..cepatnye mase bergerak...aku dah tua 42 hari dr time aku last tulis cotek2 kat mende alah blog ni.aih...dek kerana bosan sgt arini makanya aku jenguk jugak la kan.just in case nanti aku mati ke esok luse ade la jugak bukti2 ke ape2 ke kat sini.

hurmmm....bile dah start tulis selalunye terus hilang ape yg nak ckp. bosan betul.tp papepune xam sudah berlalu and esok start term terakhir dlm hidup sbg seorg undergrad hingusan...muahahaha...seronoknyeeeeeeeeeeee.....(actually tak la seseronok yg digambarkan). esok dah start kene pegi roslin, malas sekali nak travel pegi balik ke roslin yg memakan masa 2 jam..argh tertekan tertekan...dah la my super tak contact2 lg aku...beranak agaknye bini die sbb ariuh katenye sarat ngandung. goodluck la utk ke roslin esok.

aih aih....abah still dalam ward lg. dah 4 minggu kot.at one point dah givup plak nak kira hari. lame sgt.everyday aku doakan jek yg terbaik buat abah. jika hidup itu lebih baik baginya maka sembuhkanlah abah dgn segera tapi jika mati itu lebih baik maka matikanlah abah dgn mudah dan tempatkan dia di kalangan org2 yg beriman. mama ckp abah dah takle jalan.semuanya kat atas katilsounds bad tp abah still lg boleh ckp2. cume ckpnye tu sgtlah slow dan termengah2. syahdu pulak rasenye.susah jd anak bongsu ni rupenye....isk isk isk

edinburgh lately dah bosan sket.dgn cuaca yg mcm peti sejok telebey gas ni.jari jemari ni dah tak terkira dah berape kali terkoyak free2.nak beli gloves malas sbb selalunye hilang a week after di beli.nak tak nak tahan aje lah. well slain dr cuace sejuk ni, dinamika sosial kat sini pun sudah beranjak. dah boleh nampak inner circle establishment.dah tak within my comfort zone dah. kene la aku jugak mengadakan anjakkan paradigma sket utk menyesuaikan keadaan. bosan.

well skang wpun dah pukul 5 suku petang (dah gelap gelita actually) aku tgh duk dgr lagu beautiful - carole king...sumber inspirasi la sket lagu ni tatkala mata tu mcm nak terkatup jek bgn pagi2. harini jek dah dgr 18 kali. hahahahaha.sj nak motivatekan diri yg ala ala takde motivasi lately.

eh lupe plak cuti arituh ade kawan2 dtg from dublin, leicester n manchester.seronok gile kot time tu. dgn gossip2 terkini semua. plus edinburgh ni mmg cantik so menggebah la aku bangga show off dgn dierg (nak2 kat dak dublin..haruzla dublin sampah ok) betapa chantiquenye edinburgh ni dlm apa jua keadaan sekalipun.pastu bile semua org dah balik aku meroyan sorg2 attau nak wat ape dah.menggelabah je.

ape2 jek..skang aku tgh tahap miskin ni ha.duit takde sgt sbb shopping mcm org gile tak igt dunia. boxing day t erakhir kene la aku meroyan2 keliling edin ni. berbakul2 brg aku beli.seronoknye shopping.sgt terapeutik.sihat skejap rohan iaku slepas bershopping rebut2 mcm sial kat next.sanggup beratur kul 6 pg sbb kedai bukak kul 7 semata2 nak dptkan jaket idaman yg unfortunately tak sale.muahahahaha....papepun puas jugak la berjuang boxing day tu.

aih ape jek lg ek.cm byk mende jek terjadi...isk isk lupe plak skang dah 2009.azam tahun baru? takde azam.takdan nak pk.busy pegi street party tgk bunga ape grand2.pastu tgk torchlight prosession plus bunga api lagi.isk isk...hogmanay kat sini haram meriah. 4 hari celebration.patutla aku takdan nak berazam.aci ke ek kalu start azam tahun baru 1 ferbruary?
tak pun 9 september 09 ke? catchy sket tarikh tuh.muahahhahaha

isk...udadeh...penat bercheloteh...see ya.

Exam sudah dekat!

2008-11-30T02:04:00.002Z

well semakin hari exam semakin dekat..of course la kan...and semakin dekat exam itu semakin tertekan lah segala kewarasan saki baki yg ade dlm otak ni..ahh dah tak waras dah...spatutnye skarang tgh perah otak bace biosensors namun kerana dek St Andrew's day aku pun cutilah dr membaca2 segala kejadah ilmu2 penting tu.

lately mungkin bahana tekanan hidup yg mendalam, kestabilan emosi juga sedikit sebanyak tergugat. semua yg berlaku bagaikan satu ancaman besar.ah tidak...maaflah kepade sape2 yg aku tersnapped lately. sorry jugak kepade mereke2 yg telah diumpat nista sepanjang program ketidakstabilan emosi diri ini berjalan.

sorry la kepade encik firdaus kerana telah menjadi mangsa utk melepaskan geram...hahaha...selamat datang ke dalam kehidupan saya yg tidak stabil ni.hahaha...

bosannye...takde substance langsung entry ni (mcm la entry2 lain bersubstance)

just another ordinary day

2008-11-16T23:26:00.002Z

yup..it is just another ordinary day.nothing mcuh happen selain dari membaca lecture2 motes yg simple mengelirukan. ah... anta fenin...

my piano lesson seem to tidak memprogresskan dirinya. tuan guru aqtar dah ajar mcm mcm tp secara praktikalnya jari2 yg dah berkematu kerasnye ni tak mampu nak catch up dgn kelancaran otak ni.ahhh...bilelah nak noleh main lagu best ni.

main squasy pun mcm tiada perkembangan.day after day aqtar n wan berkembang bagai bintang supernove jus a moment before its explode. aku mcm lubang hitam plak.tiada kemajuan

hmmm.harini actually hari yg bahagia despite of mood swing yg tak menetu langsung.mungkin winter blues telah menjangkiti minda aku yg selama ini sihat. tp takpe.

just wanna say sorry to wan and aqtar sbb moody giler mase game td. just want to let you guys know that i wasn't your fault. rough day aite.

wah wah wah.... i miss my ex flatmate. (see...no s...maknyenye sorg je la...muahahaha)

Revision starts now!

2008-11-08T23:51:00.002Z

hmmm....
got 4 papers in amonth time. life going to be more and more busier eacy day and i kinda like it. i can't really focus in everything that i do lately. i need to concentrate.

just now, the sayap tengah malaysian had a khatam Quran session at aqtar's (well this is officially mo other flat since i spend most of my time there). nothing much happen tho. as usual, watching movie, eat eat eat....ive tried my best to not to feel bad and sad about everything and i think i managed to.

hmmmm....now i need to prepare my mind for tomorrow...more study..more lectures....more more more....

and last but not least...i miss u!!!! dang it!!

A year had passed

2008-11-05T01:10:00.002Z

yeah...definitely its been a year since i last wrote something in this. A year and 18 days to be exact.hurmmm...lots and lots of things happened in that short 383+ days. well now im in my honours year. another year before i reach adulthood. its kinda fun and exciting but mostly i fell really sad thinking about it. i will definitely miss edinburgh and all the peoples that i've met here.sobs sobs sobs..lets spare the sad moment later.

now im living with a totally new flatmate which i dont really get a chance to know yet. he's been busy and so am i and i only say " hi zul!" to him for the pass two months. i miss my previous flatmates!! wafi, mahathir...and even azmil. i just hope that i will have another chance to be with them like how it used to be. i shud have accept the direct enrty offer! but yeah..no regrets.i will definetely enjoy my final year here to the most.

i went to milan, monaco, nice, marsaille, perpingan, crebere and spain last easter. it was the best trip i ever been to despite of having the most annoying but most generous human being alive around for the whole 10 days trip. hahaha....no offense sit but 10 days is just too much! i get annoyed seeing u in just 2 hours. god knows how annoyed i am. but i was great. it was the only trip abroad that ive been to with my best friend (not sit of course).

i went back to malaysia last summer. as usual it was great. the food, the loves, the weather (well maybe it was too hot)..bla bla bla...i didnt really do much thing in malaysia other than housekeeping, baby sitting, gardening.

well....i things thats sum up everything. i dont really want to write anything actually but i feel a weebit lonely toninght....how unfortunate. i'd kill myself but i'm just too busy...haha...pray for me ok. i wish for a very succesful final year!!!! i want 1st class!!!!

what a hectic week

2007-10-17T09:35:00.000+01:00

ngengeh...dah takde idea nka taruk tajuk ape...tp this week mmg hectic...nyesal plak tak wat essay awal2.skang mc lipas kudung dah berlari2 sane sini nak wat essay. pastu kene isi beborang utk industrial placement plak.doakan la kejayaan aku kelak.

so far dah dpt menghilangkan rasa kesunyian dlm diri wpun kat umah ni basically aku tinggal sorg2 most of the time. the other three big rooms to empty. azmil outstation mane2 ntah.mahat plak berumah tangga kat lab com. maka tinggalkan aku seko2. tp suasana ini sgt condusif utk aku siapkan essay dan tgk porn..eh silap2...

arini tidur 2 jam je.kene bangun awal sbb eric mabius dah nak sampai.spatutnye kul8 td tp up until now tak muncul2 lg. yeah...pasni leh la meronggeng dgn die.hahhaha....fyi ni bukan eric mabius dlm ugly betty tu.

memandangkan walsh western postman tu tak muncul2 maka aku kene meneruskan essay aku yg so far br je 946 words..tu pun termasuk tajuk2 yg aku tulis gabak2 nak kasi nampak vast...

奉大仁大慈的真主之名

2007-10-14T12:15:00.000+01:00

奉大仁大慈的真主之名.....

it's good for us to start everything we do with that declaration, so it'll stop us from doing bad things. because who dares to do something bad in His name?

hopefully...and i really hope....i will be a goodman..oneday...i promise...i will

ameeeen.

HAri RAyA Aidilfitri ke 2

2007-10-13T22:17:00.000+01:00

hik hik hik...

smlm sempena raya aku tido kul 5pg sbb main xbox kat umah imran. balik umah aku call malaysia...waaaa...terharu sungguh namun aku berjaya mengekulkan diri supaya tak menerukkan lg keadaan yg dah sedia kala syahdu tu. pastu tido mati smpi kul 10

wpun mata berat gile nak bukak tp perut telah mendorong badan utk menggagahkan diri menyiapkan diri nak pg beraya. abg faizal nye umah kul 11.00 pg..berkeriuk perut aku pg2 dah disantapkan dgn laksa penang ngan pulut kunng. dengar lagu2 raya yg abg faizal semang donlond mlm2 raya sbyk 70 lagu tu menambahkan lg suasana hari raya yg mapan.

kul 12 bertolak pg umah abg faizi yg terletak jauh di sekolah malaysia liberton tu. demi makan sanggup naik bas n mereah hujan bersama toriq, azmil mahat sit, zul dan amir. (bujang2 lain dijangkakan masih lena dgn nafsu tidur yg dtg mendadak selepas tamat ramadahan). makan makan dan makan lagi smpi kenyang.

kul 2 plak kami merentas edinburgh dr timut ke barat kot demi melantak satay yg dijanjikan oleh kak mai. makan smpi kenyang jugak. muahahahahaha.....

pasti si sit gemok tu nak usha2 british heart foundation furniture yg aku pg ngan wafi last week tu. chis..nyesal lak bgtau....penat telah berlaku disitu. pastu balik je terus membuta dr kul lima smpi kul 9...aaaahhhhhh...aku dah la kene siapkan essay ni.presentation lg. lab report lg..ssssssiiiiiiiaaaaaaallllllllaaaaaannnnnnnn.....

until this mom aku still tunggu msg ko chip! ko watdek je.tp aku sure ko tgh enjoy beraya kan.dgn baju raya kaler kelabu ko tu.hehehe.....waaaaa...nak beraya ngan ko!

Selamat Hari Raya!

2007-10-12T21:01:00.000+01:00

hey ...i wanna wish selamat hari raya to all..maaf zahir batin

hmmm...atfirst i thopught raya was on saturday but then suddenly got news that raya is on friday...gembire berbaur kesedihan bcos ade kelas....

dah la i missed the last buka puasa!...arghhh

this raya atfirst agak menyedihkan. my best buddy balik malaysia so i end up feeling all alone lonely dlm bilik (this explained why aku missed my last buka puasa)

but then as time goes by aku membiasakan diri dgn idop camni (ni tempoh percubaan la since next year aku mmg akan totally lonely)

bangun pg terus p smyg raya (mujur smpt bayar zakat fitrah)pastu tak dgr khutbah terus je p rush nak ke kelas

the jumpe abg zul yg kebetulan nak p kb jugak.die ajak naik kete but b4 tu singgah la umah die (umah abg lokman vet actually)

kelas berjln spt biasa..bosan dan memenatkan

pastu balik terus p greggs sbb kempunan 4 bulan tak makan onion n cheese (tp end up kat perut mahat!)

then pg raya umah ust radhi bersama azmil (very unlikely to happen b4) pastu ikut abg faizal p raya umah abg jo (even more unlikely to happen b4..ahh tak pnah terlintas pun)

dah kenyang terus balik solat jumaat n terus membuta

mahat kejut aku utk p umah ust nik then pg umah abg lokman (byk sungguh lokman)

i still wonder ape jd dgn are u skang.u supposedly msg me like 7 hours ago but till now no news...miss u badly

selayang pandang

2007-10-02T13:08:00.000+01:00

saya terbaca sebuak post di blog seorg rakan sy ini..well blog dia tak la best pun..even post pun skadar hgt2 tahik ayam aje..kejap ade kejap takde...muahaha

tp yg bestnye post ni agak best...mcm ade msg gak la yg aku dpt dr post die ni...so silelah bace..(aku amik sbhg je sbb honestly the other part of his post sucks like him jugak)

" Bertanya seseorang pada 'Muslim Scholar'....bagaimana hendak memberhentikan diri dari melakukan dosa?....Maka jawabnya....Setiap kali anda ingin melakukan dosa...tanyakan pada diri:

1.Buatlah maksiat di mana Tuhan tidak dapat melihat anda......
2.Buatlah dosa di tempat yang bukan di bawah kekuasaan Ilahi...
3.Buatlah dosa di mana anda bukan memakan rezeki dari Rabbul Al-Amin.
4.Adakah anda boleh jamin......bahawasanya anda tidak akan didatangi oleh malaikat maut ketika membuat dosa?
5.Dan Sesungguhnya.... Tuhan itu memberi pahala pada mereka yang menamatkan niat mereka untuk berbuat dosa......

Atau yang hampir sama maknanya......"

sekian....

semoga kite semua dimurahkan rezeki untuk bertemu dgn lailatul qadr...ameeeeeeeen

afiq is learning to let go

2007-10-01T11:34:00.000+01:00

hmmm....
it wasnt really a very interesting week...it simply one of my worst momment in life...heheh

tak byk yg jd pun selain dr aku nye mood swinging up and down constantly and makin kerap...
aku tak suke hidup camni
cant wait to start over
afiq is learning to let go....
yeah ...i hope this time its going to work as i plan it to be

bingung...

2007-09-20T11:13:00.000+01:00

there are tonnnes of love surrounding me but i seem to can't fine a way to channel all that loves into a very positive way. somehow that tonnes of love had slowly killing the me that i used to be. i love you dear.... i do love you... i just cant find a way to cheer that love in a way that can benefit us both...

i love u

merdekakah kita?

2007-09-01T13:01:00.000+01:00

sentap aku pagi2 merdeka ni bangun2 tido nak tgk bendera berkibar kat depan rumah malangnye bendera yg telah aku pacakkan dgn tangan aku sdr ni (beli pakai duit mak) dah dicekup.insan mane la yg bodoh alang sgt nak curi bendera tu.nak sambut merdeka pun biarla secara hala dan dirahmati. b4 this bace kat paper psal curi2 bendera igtkan hanya gimik smata2.rupe2nye reality. sial aku sumpah jatuh moto la kpd pencuri2 tu.nak wat repot polis pun mcm tak berbaloi je.mau tergelak je polis tu nanti. nak haramkan pun mcm menyusahkan plak.takde keje aku nak tunggu pencurik tu kat pdg masyar kelak.aku pun byk nak kene carik org lain time tu (nauzubillah~~~).kepade adik2 pencuri tu...lekas la dewasa...merdekakanlah minda adik2 tu...(kompem je adik2 yg curik ntah2 pakcik tue ganyut) papepun mencuri tu haram.tak berkat..camne nak berjaya dek oi...

Project Kalsom 13

2007-08-19T12:11:00.000+01:00

The name “Kalsom” originated from Puan Kelthom Abdullah, a single mother struggling to make ends meet in Kelantan. Her children were forced to drop out of school, and her plight was given some media attention in 1993. Upon reading about her in the papers, a group of young Malaysian students in the UK decided to run a collection to help bear the cost of her children’s education.

For the initial group of students, it was not enough to merely collect money. They decided to take it a step further, spurred on by the conviction that they had a greater role to play. They decided that given their youth, and being students themselves, they were in an excellent position to help encourage and assist students from lesser-developed parts of Malaysia to excel in their studies. And so, during their summer holidays in the following year, they ran a motivational camp for the students of Jerantut, Pahang. It proved successful, and they decided to run it again the following year in Gerik, Perak.

Projek Kalsom has since been held annually, growing from strength to strength, and we are now running the project with the full support of the Malaysian Ministry of Education. In 2007, Projek Kalsom 13 inspired 160-odd student participants from the state of Perlis, with the help of 50 volunteers.

The prime objective of Projek Kalsom is to make learning a more positive experience. With students from the UK at helm of this project, the participants are bound to benefit as they are exposed to the various methods used by the facilitators ( the students from UK) in their daily work.

Besides that, the project also aims to provide positive role models for the rural participants. The facilitators can act as mentors, guiding the participants and giving them tips as they prepare to embrace the challenges of the world.

Last but not least, this camp desires to instill the values of teamwork and individual responsibility. Empowering the participants to work in groups to complete an arduous task is easier said than done, and this camp sincerely hopes to achieve just that.

http://projek-kalsom.com/

Malu~~~~~~

2007-08-04T07:21:00.000+01:00

malu besar gitu…haha…seperti yg dilihat kat area my plan tu, konon2nye baim balik 5 ogos…hak hak hak…mcm2 la plan.konon2 nak anta surprise email la, nak pos card gongrats la. mmg plan gempak ni.dah siap dah draft utk wat ecards. smlm tetibe nampak baim OL.tegur2 die sbb dah 3 taun ni (sejak die masuk uni) tak penah2 appear online kat aku. aku pun dgn banggenye ckp “selamat balik esok!!!!!!!!”.hahah… malu besar aku tetibe die kate die dah kat umah. ah kenapa begini. aku cek2 balik email yg die kasik rupenye die kate die balik 1 ogos kul 5 n bukan 5 ogos…hahaha..itulah malu besar aku arini…..

Pasar Malam Bandar Dungun!

2007-08-02T16:19:00.000+01:00

fuh...dah setahun tak pegi pasar malam....it's nearly two month i've been trying to go to pasar malam but there were always some aral melintang. selalunya kalu petang2 time plg kondusif nak pg pasar malam tu la hujan turun bagai nak runtuh rumah2 aku ni. kalu hujan tu sure la geli geleman nak pg pasar malam tu. dgn lecah sane sini...makanan kene percik air ntah dr mane asal usulnye..ntah ke hujan ntah ke peluh sape2 ntah...iyuuuuuuu

tp tadi dgn bangganya dapat pegi pasar malam..huhu...bangga gila la...hahaha..pasar malam yey yey pasar malam yey yey...excited sgt nak pg. bile dah smpi tu teruih la mencari parking yg amatlah susah nye.almaklumla sume nak paking depat2 pasar tu.kalau boleh nak je paking kat depan gerai tu kan.ha mujur la ade parking yg jauh sket tp sng...dah paking aku pun merayau la kat pasar tu besama mak, akak n due ketul anak buah aku.

best pg psar malam.plg best dpt usha orang.aku ni kata bawah tempurung.tak jumpe2 org pun kat umah aku ni.memerap je.skali skale tgk org ni jakun la jugak.mcm mcm ragamnye.ade yg herot ade yg lawa ade yg bising.aku tgk je la.seronok jugak tgk lagak2 org ni.tp aku dah konpius org dungun ni camne rupe parasnye.y ela sejak skolah2 uitm poli2 ape sume ni bukak kat dungun ni mcm mcm org dr seloroh pelosok malaysia ni ade. konpius aku.

tp plg rase bertuah bile dpt tgk kaum india kat dungun ni.asal la taburan penduduk kaum india sgt rendah kat dungun ni.td pun jumpe 4 org je.sekeluarge gamaknye tu.aku rindu betul nak dgr org india ckp2. seronok tgk gaya diorg.ade class tersendiri.dr lenggok lidah sehingga la kepade kepale dan tangan sume ade gaye yg unik.maybe kalau dierg keraskan kpale tu maka berkuranganlah keunikkannye.tp mmg best la tgk dierg berckp. in my life pun aku amatlah kurang kwn india.maybe kalu duduk kat perak ke banting sure ramai kwn india kot.hmmm

kat pasar mlm tu tugas aku ialah dukung anak buah aku.ha abes spanjang jalan tu ade aje yg menyinggah nak usik2.cubit la, bacak la..ntah sape2 je la yg datang tu.seronok je la aku tgk org ni.hahah...tp anak buah aku wat dek aje.aku la tersengeh2 melayan sape2 ntah itu.

balik2 aku rupenye tak beli ape2 pun..hahahah....yong tau fu je la yg akak aku beli.mentang2 la duit abah aku kasi ha ditaramnye 17ringgit yong tau fu tu. hmmm..itulah journey hebat aku arini. kpd yg kat oz2 n uk2 tu mane la ade pasar malam ni. ha makan la tayar car boot korg tu..harharhar....

Sambutan Bulan Kemerdekaan 2007

2007-08-01T15:39:00.000+01:00

Allhamdulillah…sudah 50 tahun Negara kita Malaysia menikmati kemerdekaan. bersempena dengan sambutan bulan kemerdekaan Negara kita yang ke 50 ini, marilah sama-sama kita memanjatkat doa kehadrat ilahi agar kemakmuran yang kita miliki hari ini berkekalan hendaknya. semoga Malaysia maju dan bertambah maju di masa yang mendatang..

hmmm penat skema mema…well bangge la sket kan Malaysia dah 50 taun merdeka.ha tgk ade je lg Negara skarang yg tak merdeka2.pastu ade plak Negara yg merdeka beratus taun dah kot tp tak aman aman pun. so mmg lah bersebab untuk kite sebagai anak anak Malaysia yg baik2 ni untuk bersyukur dgn ape yg kite ade skang ni. time kasih byk2 lah kepade yg dah bersusah payah korban hidup harta nyama anak bini utk memastikan Negara kita ni merdeka dan kekal merdeka. semoga Allah membalas jasa2 baik murni itu kerana sesungguhnya hanya Allah shjlah yg mampu melakukannya.

hai dah 50 taun merdeka ni..dah tue berjanggut dah. kalau manusia 50 taun tu dah diabetis sane sini dah tu.ha tu la sbb tak jg kesihatan.main taram je telan ape yg boleh.kalu batu tu sedap ha batu tu pun die suruh jugak jdkan aiskrim. kite ni sebagai rakyat Malaysia ibarat la cell2 dalm badan manusia bernama Malaysia ni (ha jgn la lupe anggap Malaysia tu manusia).bersatu padu jd tissue,organ lalu system. ha ni sains f4 ni jgn pure2 taktau plak.

ha bayangkanlah kalau satu cell tu rosak, sure la hade cara nak gantikannye kan (masyaAllah ciptaanMu maha agung) tp kalu dah bergantang2 cell rosak ha…gamatnye matilah manusia tu.maybe cancer ke tak pun kematian tisu2 badan. sorry la aku bukan dak medic nak citer gini2 panjang2. tp ape yg nak disampaikan ialah kat Malaysia ni ade 26.4 juta manusia. mcm mcm kaler,mcm mcm ragam. bayangkanlah kalu separuh dr 26.4 juta tu rosak….mcm lumpuh separuh badan la Malaysia ni

tp adekah Malaysia ni lumpuh separuh badan? rosak sgt ke org2 kite ni? hei tatau la plak sbb mmg bench mark la antare yg elok ngan yg rosak tu kat dunia ni. sparuh tmpt tu mende2 yg tak elok bg kite hei bagus bg dierg..hmmm..tatau la kiah.

tatau la psal ape la tulis pasal mende alah ni.well mungkin sbb dah sgt kekeringan idea yg mmg tak penah nye ade pun. just nak memenuhkan je ruang blog ni atas dasar takmo die jd hambar gile.muahahaha….

bye…..

Selamat Pulang Wira Negara!!!

2007-07-29T13:14:00.000+01:00

haluuuuuuu….hmmm…I just received an email form my best friend..uh uh ibrahim. it’s been a very long year since we last met. I felt so menyesal sbb tak dpt nak fulfil janji2 manisku nak berkunjung ke soton and now as I no longer have the reason to go there, bertambah la rase mcm tak akan pg ke soton dah. but papepun Alhamdulillah, baim, dah selamat grad and he’s now tgh bz2 nak pulang ke Malaysia. SELAMAT PULANG WIRA NEGARA!!! dengki jugak tgk org2 dah start keje2 ni. tp ni dengki in a good way la.memotivasikan diri nak berusaha dgn lebey macho utk mendapat yg terbaik. aku br terkial2 nak masuk third year while plenty of my fren dah start keje dah. I even got a junior yg dah lulus pinjaman pembelian rumah!!!!!!!

well semoga dgn kejayaan ibrahim dan rakan2 yg lain, I will be more bersemangat utk mendapatkan yg lebih baik dr ape yg aku dah ade skang. ni bukan tak bersyukur tau.ni azam nak berjaya cemerlang.

hmmm…dah 3 4 ari hujan dgn lebatnye in dungun and as the astro service currently unavailable mode turns on, I ve got nothing else to do. rasenye ipod (name die CR..hahah) tu dah 7 8 kali round dah aku dgr sempene nak menghilangkan kebuhsanan.

hooooooooooooo...boring.......

2007-07-21T21:54:00.000+01:00

nothing much happen in my life nowadays. after being in the most experiencing moment in life yet, everything now seem so much ordinary to me. heh…I’ve been missing somebody lately. yeah I dare to admit it. you know who you are. I don’t know what to do. just cant wait for that moment to come.

a friend of mine, peeja, got married today….i wish you a very happy future life.ameeeeeeeeeeen….

my australian winter holiday...muah muah

2007-07-18T22:47:00.000+01:00

these are the chronology details of my Australian journey

29^th June 2007

10.00 pm – depart from dungun bus station (it doesn’t really look like one)

30^th June 2007

4.30 am – arrived at putra KL

6.30 am – solat subuh together with malaikat subuh (anpe knows who)

6.50 am – met cherap (that was the second time I met him at the exact same place)

7.30 am – arrive at KL sentral, wait until 8 am for the beg simpanan area to open. then had a very ala kadar shower (lap lap only)

9.21 am – anep khan finally arrived. he was actually late by 6 minutes. had nasik lemak mahal but tak best together ( we laughed all the way like crazy even for a smallest thing)

10.30 am – jay arrived. went to IMU to meet aween dayah annie and Diana (where is timah?) us us us

2.00 pm – move to KL sentral for lunch (konon la nak pg midvell kan)

5.00 pm – check in at KL sentral (anep managed to book the whole isle for four of us…huh).

7.45 pm – mcm nak gila waiting for qama from ipoh while us eating burger king

8.00 pm – qama finally arrived

10.00 pm – boarding and depart to Sydney..lalallala

1^st July 2007

7.25 am – arrived in Sydney (Australian geography looks really weird from the flight)

9.00 am – travel to Sydney central station and met saadah, sujai and yus. (yus looks really weird. maybe because of his big head). had my first meal in australia, a bad taste doughnut.

11.00 am – met mohaz (eliza’s bro) and move to his apartment. ( what a freaa accommodation). getting confuse with the Australian coins ans the 2 dollars coin is smaller than the 5 cent coin. anep nearly memalukan dirinya

2.00 pm – my Australian tour officially started as I forcedly walk my way to Sydney opera house. from afar, the building looks really majestic. I never thought that I would be there. the Sydney harbour bridge are also nearby. only after 215 shots later we finally arrived at the opera house. if looking at the material used to make the unique roof, I am really amazed as my kitchen’s floor looks more expensive than that.

7.00 pm – passes by the rock (it is actually a Sydney version of petaling street). have some expensive pancake (a must go restaurant when you are in sydney)

9.00 pm – met izza with his brand new boyfriend ( it is her first bf actually). then went back to mohaz’s and ate Maggie mee secretly without anep

2^nd July 2007

10.00 am – met all the girls and straight away moved to bondi beach. ( a very short span beautiful beach) the sand is realy soft and smooth and the scenary, I mean the scenary (hahahaha) was really amazing. hot..hot and hot…….

1.00 pm – solat then lunch. ate the boys version of mee goring. kinda nice but the girls doest seem to enjoy it very much.

4.00 pm – bye bye bondi. went shopping at Sydney town. great stuff but then yus convince me that Melbourne is better. bought my first cardigan.

7.00 pm – lunch with shu (qama’s friend back in beseri). ate the halal nando’s (not like the “halal” oporto suggested by yus)

3^rd July 2007

8.00 am – ride a train to blue mountain (at fisrt I wasn’t really get a clear view about this place)

10.30 am – arrive in blue mountain ( a very nice small town). blue mountain is a place similar to grand canyon but 15 times older than grand canyon. it is so old that rain forest start to recolonize the canyon. I was amazed by the beautifulness of the place

12.00 pm – ride a very big cable car with glass floor. so jakun

2.00 pm – viewed the three sisters. very scenic. miss this place. must go place!!

4.00 pm – take a kinda cute theme photos. hahahahha…still tergelak.it was actually my first snobbish moment during the visit

5.00 pm – chocolate factory ( very the bosan)

7.00 pm – ride back to Sydney town

4^th July 2007

10.00 am – fish market in Sydney. a place where you can find all sort of fresh seafood. ate 26 dollars seafood lunch which include calamari, seabass, little octopus, some weird oyster (the shells look like mermaid’s bras), cheesed oyster, and many more.

1.00 pm – shopping for souvenirs at darling harbour.

4.00 pm – ride ferry from darling harbour to one place which I don’t know its name ( we were fare evadersing for the first time which saved us 5.20 doll.

5.00 pm – crossing the Sydney harbour bridge ( what a spontaneous idea)

10.00 pm – start our way to the airport for gold coast but stupidly we missed the last train. we ended up sleeping at the cold windy platform for 6 hours

5^th July 2007

6.00 am – arrived in Sydney airport

8.00 am – bye bye Sydney, hello gold coast!!!

10.00 am – arrive at our apartment in the so damn sunny gold coast, the cascade garden. slept like hell to cover the sleep that I missed last night.

2.00 pm – went shopping again..bla bla….bought the ticket to the dreamworld and movie world

8.00 pm – went back and cooked dinner. then watched Wimbledon until half dead.

6^th July 2007

9.00 am – dreamworld dreamworld…must ride rides list are as listed…tower of terror, the claw,so stupid sudden drop like genting solero shot, only two times higher. it wasn’t bad but not as great as I expected.

8.00 pm – went to Friday night market at surfer’s paradise. so coooooooooooooooooooooooool

11.00 pm – ate the bubur goring cooked by qama using so called beras jasmine suggested by yus

7^th July 2007

9.00 am – movieworld movieworld…siot…the best themepark I ever went to. not a single ride in this park was disappointing. all best. the superman rides was the best!!!! if I need to chose between movieworld and dreamworld, of course I will choose movieworld.!!!!! a must go place!!!

8^th July 2007

10.00 am – the adrenaline park!!!! a small park with a very deymn heart stopping rides. try all if you rich enough. I spent 200dolss here. the 13 floors flying coaster nearly kill me. then the sling shot (which I always wanna do in Edinburgh) also nearly kill me. then the vomatron (very similar to the one in edin but this one is a lot more scarier (18 floors high)

1.00 pm – went to surfers paradise. played tenteng (gagal) and baling selipar (also gagal). end up playing mafia and the silent killers (use very little energy)

6.00 pm – bungy jumping!!!! an experience I cant describe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! called me if you need to know the details hahahhaha

7.00 pm – back to surfers paradise. 2 hours and a couple of snobbish later, we went back ( ko ni pool pool pool – quote of the day….hahahha)

9^th July 2007

10.45 am – bye bye gold coast, hello Melbourne!

12.00 pm – lunch at lazzat on lygon then shopping like hell again at Melbourne central

5.00 pm – met aqeem and timah. ate their petronas dinner

8.00 pm – max Brenner!!! the best and purest hot chocolate I ever had. hahaha…I actually had my first suckao here. the chocs are very chocolaty.

10.00 pm – watching api neraka at the crown. the fire was so underated….hahahah

10^th July 2007

8.00 am – driving all the way to philip’s island. it was kinda fun though. having qama as the lousy driver and anep as the lousy co driver making my life kinda easy just sitting behind making stupid jokes with yus

10.00 am – arrived in maru wild life park. well after 22 years of life, at last I had a chance to touch kangaroo, wombat and wallabies. very interesting places to be despite of the bad smell.

12.00 pm – amaze n think! place just like camera obscura but more interesting!!! I enjoyed the stupid simple but scary slide. aaaaaaaaaaaaa…..

6.00 pm – penguin parade. it was…………amazing!!!!!!!!!! the penguins are really cute and watching them return to their natural nest really stunned me.

11^th July 2007

10.00 am – shopping at smith’s street. the whole street are packed with factory outlet. though the street was overall dodgy in a way but then the good that I could find there were just great.

2.00 pm – continue shopping at direct factory outlet at the town ( I don’t actually realize that that place got name). this place is greater than smith’s street…I really enjoyed shopping that I spent around 300 dollars

5.00 pm – izza went back to otago…well although she’s kinda motuhless person but then without her this trip would nit be the same….

10.00 pm – preparing frood for tomorrow’s journey…

12^th July 2007

9.00am – start our driving journey to mornington peninsular. the scenery was kinda typical at first but as we arrived there I was delighted but the beautiful seashore….we stop for a couple of times at some unrecognizable places but yet all of them were interesting.

2.00 pm – we went to one hill which interestingly, is known as the arthur’s seat (Edinburgh also got one la). we were quite unlucky as the cable car wasn’t in order and it was raining.

5.00 pm – we finally arrived at the mornington peninsular ferry station. it’s been a while since I last ride a ferry. it was a short 40 minutes journey across the bay. this must be aqeem most embarrassing through out the journey as she slipped nonsensely on the ferry…hahahahaha

6.00 pm – arrived at the other side of the bay and continuing driving for another countless hour

9.00 pm – finally arrived at Apollo bay. stop for a while to regain energy and for some (like me) this stop is important to reduce the nausea effect from the very like snake road (maybe that’s why they called it as the great ocean road

11.00 pm – we finally arrived at the destination but then need to wait until tomorrow morning to see all the great Allah creation. anep tried to find some cheap motel but yet the cheapest one was around 250 dollars. we finally decided to sleep in the car..it was damn freeeeeeeezing

13^th July 2007

6.00 am – woke up…although the sempit condition of the car, I managed to sleep comfortably. solat subuh in the most freezing temperature I ever been to..huh…

8.00 am – I fanally got a chance to see clearly the reason why they called this road as the great ocean road. the 12 apostles was really beautiful and amazing!!!! a must go place…..after hours of wowing moment we then start our journey back…sad…sad..sad…

5.00 pm – arrived in Melbourne……very tired….

7.00 pm – dinner at alamaro (a halal Italian restaurant).

10.00 pm – went to ameng’s place…to be honest, I’ve been waiting for this moment since I first planned the trip…I miss him very much!!! too bad that we only got couples of hour to spend together.thanks for the key chain and the updates!!!!!!

14^th July 2007

9.00 am – start our journey by tram to essendon.

10.00 am – arrived at essendon after 20 minutes walking from the tram stop. I never see a factory outlet in such a scale before. near a kilometre long….aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…….i nearly declared bankrupt that day…..the best shopping experienced I ever had. poor anep. he bought 2 corelle sets for 160 dollars which I can get 4 sets with the same price at essendon. sorry sarah that I chose essendon over you. hehehe…..

6.00 pm – jakuzeeeeeeeeeeeeee……I think it was the most relaxing moment through out the trip. thansalot to yus n qama for sharing the stories with me….

8.00 pm – dinner at lazzat on lygon again.this time I chose kwey teow kerang…sedap!

9.00 pm – ice cream…..i forgot the name but I chose ferrero roche + sneakers ice cream…so sedap!!!!!! mesto go place in Melbourne

10.00 pm – celebrate susu’s birthday…I really enjoy the karaoke session…ik really enjoy it…thanks to all my new friends…susu, timah,shana,tasha,aiman,potet,naqi for a great moment….

15^th July 2007

9.00 am – went to Victoria market in melbourne. really near to sujai and rusy’s apartment. it is a bigger and well managed Australian version of petaling street. you can get anything that u can imagine..hahha (suddenly remember about the quran that I asked yus about…lol)

12.00 pm – after 3 hours and hundred of dollars later, we went to esteler, an Indonesian restaurant. I ate nasi goring terasi (similar to nasi goring belacan in Malaysia).

2.00 pm – went to syerr’s place to collect our thingies and lucky for us that syerr just finish baking her own version of brownies.so sedap syerr………..

8.00 pm – we finally go to melbourne’s airport….bbye bye Melbourne, hello KL….so sad. I never thought thai I will be trapped in the emotional situation.oh I miss you guys..all of you and I really mean it……berdoalah semoga kita jumpa lagi kelak….

berakhirlah my vacation in australia. I will never forget all the happy and sad things that happened during the 2 most memorable and enjooyful weeks of my life yet!!!

im baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!!

2007-07-17T13:46:00.000+01:00

its been a month. yeah…a really very short month. I just got back from my Australian tour.hahah…what a vacation.the best holiday I ever . thansalot to yus, sujai and rusy for the bertungkus lumus mode to make my visit as memorable. thanslaot. I really mean it. I already miss you guys a lot. thanks also to anep qama and Diana. without you guys my 8 hours flight back and fro will be like hell. i miss you guys………..muah muah muah. cant wait to see you guys later. muah muah muah.

Hellooooooooooo Australia

2007-06-29T20:44:00.000+01:00

bye bye sumer...nak pegi ostrolia ni...doakan keselamatan aku ok...mua muah muahhhh

mari mengecat rumah! (tatau la tajuk ni sesuai ke tak)

2007-06-19T23:39:00.000+01:00

hehehe…it’s a very busy day. it’s my first day in dungun and I already have tonnes of house chores to be done. I woke up kinda late this morning. lucky that my mom didn’t notice it or else I would spend my first 30 minutes of the day hearing to what she have to say. I went out to have a glimpse of the morning view of my house. until now I still enjoy the foggy view of bukit bauk which to me looks more like dungun version of mount kinabalu.

Then I tried to gather all the dead leaves. I just can help it. I can’t see those soulless once living things scattering around the garden. all the modern garden theme I installed last year had vanished. now it looks just like an ordinary kampong garden but I really love it. despite of my environmental friendly principle, I did have a bit of open burning. I don’t want mama to see those changes in my life though.

I just enjoy my afternoon by watching my three favourite channels on astro. it was fun but a bit boring sometimes. then I watched mama do the lunch. it was great to actually know how to cook masak lemak cili padi properly. mama didn’t really tumis it like I always do.

I then volunteered myself to paint the hall. it was quite a time consuming work but looking at the condition of the walls, I rather not take a chance. it is really ugly though. I chose a slightly pinkish white colour to match the tiles. luckily it is not that pink as on the tins. the colour is really soothing and I really adore it. but it cost mama about RM200 just for the paint. I never thought that it would be that expensive.

after dinner, I started with the preparation for the painting project which I plan to do the first thing innext morning but since I have like another 3 hours before 12 (and abah was already in the bed), I decided to try painting the it. at least for the first coat. I manage to finish 60% of the wall.

it’s 12.22am. I wonder what…..do right now. maybe already in the bus.ahh I miss……..

Dungun here i come!!!

2007-06-18T23:36:00.000+01:00

I’m now in dungun. in my home sweet home…yeah…it’s really sweet despite of all the mess due to being left for almost three weeks. poor abah…his beloved ayam serama died. mama found it stiff dead on the rumah pokok. and poor mama…almost all her 50 something guppies disappeared. shida and zaidi can simply be blamed for what had happened since they don’t really sensitive with the changes in mama’s little fountain which I built last summer. luckily there are still some of them successfully escaped from the “drought” at mama’s fountain. other than that, I am quite lucky. the mata kucing are still there. this means that the beruks weren’t here. and I als can see the sukuns, nonas and the belimbings waiting to be eaten later of this month.

I managed to make a round circling my little bungalow although I’m a bit tired from driving all the way here from karak. I saw two spotted kittens with another old clear white stray cat. I love cat. being in the UK wasn’t really allow me to feel the softness of cats fur since there a so little chance of seeing cats wondering around there ( their people really have a close control of their pets). I tried so many times to catch the cats but only after several attempts I managed to have o hold on one of them (it was trapped in mama’s bedroom actually). I assumed that those cats are my neighbours but if it isn’t theirs, I will surely keep all of them, at least until I get back to the UK. remember, first thing to do next morning – ask my neighbour about the cats.

I finally met ain sophea. she is really cute. I think che looks more like shida. hadif is so grown up. I didn’t really expect him to be that big. hehe..he kinda hesitate to meet me at first but as I approached him with chocolates and some stupid weird faces, he finally want to play with me. since mama didn’t do dinner today, we all went to che’ lijah restaurant (I don’t know the exact name of the restaurant). I have mee lakna. it wasn.t that tasty but my moms really likes it. I prefer mee cantonis but afraid to order so. I don’t think that they can cook such a delicate cuisine.hahah

can’t wait for tomorrow. I want to paint the family space. the walls look so ugly with all the decaying paint and hadif’s art peace. I already suggested white rose but mama want light yellow colour which I totally disagree. the tiles is slightly pinkish and together with yellow it will create an Indian restaurant private space just like in masjid India.

hooray....hooray...it's a holy holyday!!!!

2007-06-17T23:34:00.000+01:00

9.39 am

hmmm…the summer holiday has officially started as I am know happily in Malaysia. Not that I am really happy but there are actually some positive atmosphere surrounding me at the moment and I really wish for it to stay as it is right now. Being in Malaysia means a lot to me. I can now enjoy each and every seconds pass without any thought of missing something back home. I have actually missed a lot. izza batrisya don’t recognize me, haziq is know already in standard one and even my quite hani is now talkative. I wonder how hadif is now. oh wait, I haven’t met ain sofea yet.

as the summer holiday in Malaysia started, I now have tonnes of time to spend. having learned for my first 3 moths short holiday last year, I already have a structured holiday plan to be done this time. I don’t want to spend most of my time sleeping and on line anymore. hehehe… and for that, I’ll be in Australia in two weeks time

lets not talk about Australia yet. it’s been two years now. I will be a third biological student next year. it might not sound as great as being a third year medical student (at least for some people), I’m still grateful for what I’d accomplished. that two years time had passed so fast. so fast that I can still remember the moment I first arrived in Edinburgh. the moment I saw the red proton wira which was used to fetched jal and i. the moment I heard the sound of pipes and the moment I first in hale overseas air.

but as the two years passed I starting to wonder whether I have changed. By changed I mean good changed, some sort of improvement in my self. How about my English for starter. Being in an English speaking country ( Edinburgh are in Scotland and French is not the only nation that hate English) my english haven’t really improved (I bet you’ve already discovered that as you read through this)even worse, my malay are now starting to rot as I start to mumble in jumbling malay words upside down ( what’s tunggang tebalik in English eh?)

that is not what I want to talk about actually. the sort of changes that im looking for is more to the changes which are unseen, undiscovered and….i actually don’t know what I’m looking for ( I suddenly heard sound of fighting cats which I haven’t heard for quite a long time now) and for that, only the changes which I realize could be typed.

(silent moment)

weird. I actually can’t identify any changes in myself. is it bad? or is it good? I think it’s good but I don’t know. lets just stick to the good.

11.15 pm

huh…what a day. all my brothers are here today. poor shida.she always missed such a gathering. well perhaps that what will happen when women get married these days right. tomorrow I’m going back to dungun. and of course I will be driving all the way back there. sure I will be tired but nothing is better than driving back home.hahah...

not much change with haris and hani. they two not seem to be growing while I wasn’t around I guess. I’m still suffering from jet lag. have a very peaceful deep sleep just now and have no idea what to do now. I fell like watching astro but then when considering the type of shows that I have watched today, I think that would be enough.hahaha..it’s all entertainment. entertainment 24 7 except. it is ok if it is entertaining but the type of entertainment they produced wasn’t even entertaining. huh..

I’m glad that astro now have another 2 more channels for their learning and discoveries package. I cant wait to explore it after this. it seem very interesting though. that kind of shows should be put in out national TVs. hehehe…my favourite is of course national geographic. the fact that that particular channel have very close connection to Israel couldn’t really stop me from watching its programmes. who can resist to watch such a great production with high quality film with great information. I’m sure there are some excuses right.

I also have a chance to read the Malaysian newspaper today. well I know the online version is kinda crap somehow. it was fun to read such a proper report again. words are correctly used and in place. but as I read the hiburan section I was actually stunned. it was about sharifah amani shaved her head for a two minutes scene in the latest yasmin ahmad film. not that I was stunned by her action (it was actually kinda cool) but by the reports. it mentioned about how great our artists are and whe should be proud to have such artist as great as Britney spears. a? was Britney’s action to shave her head something to be proud of? don’t they know that she’s suffering from somekind of mental depression? was it great? is that how our Malaysian think about Britney ridiculous decision? ahh….feel like crying

it’s been 59 hours and 16 minutes since I last saw… ah I miss …. what can I do? 88 days more before we can meet again….. bye.

haluuuuuuu malaysia.......

2007-06-16T22:30:00.000+01:00

assalamualaikum. alhamdulillah…I’ve safely arrived in

Malaysia

. after all the struggle moment yg aku tempuhi td.heheh…bermula dgn nak mengejar flight dr Edinburgh to London yg sgtlah di keawalan pg sehinggalah saat2 getir menunggu beg aku kat KLIA. first of all nak ucapkan ribuan trima kasih kat ahmad wafi kerana sudi menghantar aku kat epot serta menunggu aku smpi la aku fly dan sanggup berjaga malam. sayang kat ko..ehehehe..

flight from edin to London was delayed. thanks to the weather yg akhirnye sanggup memberi kerjasama utk flight tu berlepas.thanks to Allah..alhamdulillah skali lg. the flight was quite short.not that it was that fast but because I slept all the way, as soon as the flight start taxing.heheheh…

dek karena miss karina (jurujual tiket kat lee’s travel) telah mwarning supaya aku tak lambat utk check in dan dtg 3jam lebih awal, aku tlah bertungkus lumus berlari kat Heathrow airport yg busuk itu dr terminal satu ke terminal 3. hectic sungguh epot itu. tp agak geli lo. the first 3 toilets yg aku masuk sume tersumbat.pastu the 4^th toilet yg aku masuk tu ok tp ade cina tanah besar yg agak bijak telah menggunakan tandas tersumbat ket sbelah lalu menyebabkan air kumbahan die melimpah ke tandas aku.sial je aku menyumpah2.

pastu aku pun membazir masa la kat dlm epot tu.wafi pesan suh makan kat whsmith tp kemegahan binaan starbuck kat tgh2 area menunggu tu telah menggodaku utk menghabiskan 7quid terakhir aku.merasalah perut aku nak makan banana java chips ngan 2 kpd sandwich yg ade anak2 benih mustard tu.hehehh.pastu aku tunggu je la smpi la kul11.

then aku pun pg la memboardingkan diri.sgt lah buhsan.dah la sakit perut.nyesal minum banana java tu.tak pepasal aku meninjakan diri kat epot yg serba hanyir tu.iiiiiiiiiii…lg sminit aku nak board tetibe aku dgr ade sore org panggil aku.chis.tak pepasal aku jumpe sarah newsberry kat sini plak.pastu ade la 5 6 org kelasmet aku lg yg senyum2 but seriously aku tak pnah nampak diorg2 tuh). aku turut berkongsi kepelikkan bersama sarah. byk2 tmpt kat dunia ni nak jumpe, leh jumped lm flight nak balik mesia plak.heheheh

hmmm..dah 2thn since I last used masnye service.all in all aku quite kecewa la dgn servis die yg ala ala second class tu.ekonomy class die telah menyebabkan aku betul2 merasa spt aku ade dlm ekonomi kelas ….hahah…they should try to improve the service quality la. try la jd cam emirates tu.sgt la best.menyebabkan peneerbangan aku terasa spt skejap je kalu naik emirate. dah la entertainment die sgt buhsan.ade la 20 muvies kot.nak beza dgn emirates yg ade 1000 seleksi tu.ahh geram.tak terbyg camne nak balik uk balik nanti. besides, aku sgt la menyekit tgk seorg pramugara ni.rase cam nak sepak2 je.muke masam mcm sial.aaaaaaa..kalu aku pres mas aku pecat die on the spot n suh die turun pakai parachute je.benci gile smpi skang

smpi Malaysia dlm kul715 waktu tempatan.dgn flight yg sgt panjang dan boring, perjalanan tu rase cam 7 hari lamanya. mujur la aku tak tidur 1.5 hari sebelum flight tu, ianya agak membantu aku utk mengenerate kebolehan utk tidur walaupun uncle kerepot kat belakang aku batuk kokol 12 jam tanpa henti. seriously batuk die bunyi mcm hyena.

jenuh sungguh nak balik Malaysia ni.tp sume penat jerih aku terubat jugak bile tgk air muke mak abah yg tunggu kat epot.ahh terharu aku. syukurnye dah smpi mesia.heheheh…..

babai edinburgh...babai cipi!!!!

2007-06-15T00:17:00.000+01:00

hari tak spatutnye ade post.secara logiknya takde la sbb aku mmg tgh dlm perjalanan nak pulang.namun atas smangat aku nak mengupdate blog ni spaya ianya lebih hangat dr tahi ayam, maka aku telah membuatkan post ini terlebey awal dan mengepostnya dgn cara menukarkan setting tarikhnya.so ianya nampak real.tp dah tak jd real sbb aku dah spoil kan rahsia itu.hahah

papun post ni adalah sekadar pesanan aku buat rakan2 yg tak pulang ke Malaysia ( sorry la Diana sbb tiru idea ko yg tak deregister kan itu)

To Wafi..

terima kasih byk2 sbb dah byk tolong aku dlm tempoh stahun ni (to be exact…from 11 september 2006 – 15 june 2007). terima kasih sebab berada dekat kat aku dlm semua keadaan pun. maceh byk2. jasamu dikenang..ahh nak nangis plak. jgn lupe uruskan cashback aku serta tukarkan alamat tesco card aku.kalu tak rugi je kite scan2 card tu.

To Mahat…

jgn lupe..lap badan dlm bath tub. jgn basahkan kapet aku dlm toilet tu seperti mana yg telah ko lakukan taun lepas. kalu boleh gegar2kan badan ko (mcm yg kucing slalu buat tu) utk singkirkan air tu.hahah…

To Azmil…

di ketiadaan aku ni sbg ratu kat umah tu, ko jgnla mengelat pula utk tak memasak mengikut jadual. tlglah kerahkan ahli rumah kite utk membasuh bilik air setiap 2 minggu skali serta mengemas dapur so that ianya tak jd sperti kedai mamak tepi jln yg berlumut2 tp still ramai pengunjung itu. aku nak dapur n bilik air tu sama je keadaan die mcm yg aku tinggalkan die.(mcm yg aku dah set kan standard kebersihan die tu)

to Jal…

goodluck in everything. I kno why u tak balik this summer.sorry for sneaking bout it. tp kalu nak bantuan jgn malu segan.just ask for it.thanks for everything tho

to mai…

sila lah buli baity seperti yg ko telah plan.hahah….dan jgn lupe uruskan emsa tu.byk keje ko tu.jgn la nka lengah2 kang jenuh nak menjwb mase annual meeting tu. kalu trase malas, ko baying la muke kak mai memfire ko mase agm next year ok.

to pei

jgn jd gemuk ok.lu sure akan mati bosan punyala…

to others…bai..aku balik mesia n aku boleh makan mcm2…muahahahahahhahaha

bye bye 5/8 nicolson street, hello 19/7 west nicolson street

2007-06-14T13:09:00.000+01:00

huwaaaaa…..my last day in Edinburgh.sedey plak nak tinggalkan edin ni.aaaaaaaaaaaaa…..tp ok la kot sbb balik pun nak jumpe dgn mak abah serta nak makan makanan Malaysia yg best2 tu. aaaaaaaaa….last day jugak aku duk dlm 5/8 nicolson street.sedey nak tinggalkan flat buruk era 1890an ni.dah la berhantu.hahah…

penat sungguh hari ni.kene kemas umah.pack brg…turun dr tingkat 3 pastu load dlm van.unload plak.pastu naik tingkat 3 lg.aaaaaaaa…..tertekan sungguh memindahkan brg.anak2 dara 5/8 ni mmg byk brg.jerih mengangkutnye.betisku rase cam nak pecah je naik turun tingkat 3 tu. and as mahat calculated, jumlah perjalanan aku naik turun tu equals to jarak naik and turun KL tower sebanyak 1.7 kali.hahaha…kurus aku sketika.

kepenatan pindah terubat la jugak bile masuk umah baru yg sgt heaven itu.wpun takde hall (thanks to wafi yg sudi mengorbankan bilik die yg besar mcm dewan sembahyang masjid tu utk dijadikan hall). bilik aku yg sgt la kepenthousean tu.hahah kesengetan dinding pd 60 degree serta kedudukan heater yg tak bertanggungjawab telah menyebabkan susun atur bilik aku yg sgt terhad.jalilah, pakar runding hiasan dalaman yg kami tempah khas tu pun jd bingung. tp aku percaya..cey cey..akhirnya aku dpt gak create sebuah bilik berkonsepkan klassik yg sgt la kuning kalernye juka kesemua lampu bilik aku dubuka.hahah…the best part of my room is I have my very own store. bole la aku berbogel2 dlm store tu utk menukar seluar tanpa merisaukan org kat flat bertentangan yg boleh melihat dgn jelas keadaan dlm bilik aku tu.isk isk isk.

ahh sedey..penat…isk isk isk..

hari hari terakhir seorang afiq...hahaha

2007-06-12T23:56:00.000+01:00

Assalamualaikum….pejam celik pejam celik, its been one year. Ali dah nak masuk P1 dah…even Asma’ dah pandai cakap “abg apik~~~!” kalu mai ade td sure die nangis2 dgr Asma panggil nama aku.well after a year, Asma’ recover her memory at last.hehehe…its been a busy day for me.when I mean busy, I don’t mean that it was that busy but I think it was so that busy after all..hahah..

When I first woke up, saw my 8^th phone bill.hmm..masa untuk chequeback! Its for 80quid so I cant take it easy la.lepas bermandi manda dgn air sejuk akibat kecuaian tidak mengeon heater mlm smlm, aku terus je taip2 ape yg patut utk chequeback itu.hmmm…keinginan utk memerint serta memostostar kat labkom terpaksa dilupakan bile pin student card aku tak functioning sudah.arghh tension.mujur la bidadari waktu kesusahan aku ade…hehe..thansalot la jal atas bantuan printer ko tu.though it was quite slow and pudar kerna dakwatnya cetek, aku ttp bersyukur.tanpe ko aku tak sudahkan chequeback aku ni tao.hehhe

Then went to kak cik’s house.penting ni! Sebagai ratu melayu Edinburgh, berkunjung ke umah kak cik b4 aku balik mesia ni menunjukkan tanda kesetiaan aku pd tamput pemerintahan die.heheh…best la.after kesekiankalinya dituduh sombong oleh kakcik akhirnya aku sampai gak kat umah die. Kebetulan plak ayoh n umi kakcik sudah mau pulang ke Malaysia esok.bagus sungguh.penat la otot2 aku di digunakan utk bermain dgn anak2 kakcik yg bolehla dikategorikan sbg hyper aktif tu.hmm…bile aku mengobservekan kanak2 tu td, ade betulnye jugak kate2 lynett scavo dlm DH.lepas je dak2 tu makan donut (kandungan gula yg tinggi) terus je dierg start main tendang2 sana sini.after this kene make sure diorg take no sufar while im around.heheh…

The best thing happened today was when I went to fetch ali kat tadika die.kiut2nye.terus rasa nak ade anak asap.hahaha….best sungguh rase ade budak kejar2 ko dgn muke happy bila balik skolah.dukung2 sampai rumah.ahh sifat kebapaan aku mula timbul.tanda bahaya ni.hehehe….though ali tlah melukakan bibir aku (kene hentuk dgn kpale die yg keras mcm batu), for the first time aku dpt redha yg die sill budak2.hmmm…kalau tak aku terus je giveup tanak main2 dah.hahah ade gak improvement dlm sahsiah diriku ini.heheh

Penat sungguh arini.kene kemas rumah lagi.arghh ….asal la kene pindah.barang2 umah ni bukannye sikit.sekor2 mcm anak dara byknye aksesori.dgn gitarnye, buku2 tebalnye, TV nye lg…hmmm…sengal tangan ni ha nak mengangkatnye kelak tu.huh.so far bilik aku dah setel.dapur pun tinggal pinggan je.bilik lain tu pepandai la tuan die selesaikan.syg plak nak blah dr flat era 1890an ni.actually flat yg kitorg nak masuk nil g lama la bangunannye.hahah tp ok gak la pindah.beside getting new persekitaran, aku jugak dpt pekdah dr kelajuan internet yg mapan.takde la sengal otot tunggu mcm kat sini ha.lembab sungguh!

Ahhh penat!.tak tervayang camne la nak pindah ni.ahh mati! Tingkat 3..turun…naik tingkat 3 balik!..ahhh mati…okla nak tido dah.sengal otot ni.salam

assalamualaikum..hehe...talking about five years ago suddenly make me remember about one of my favourite pas times on that particular stupid era of mine.hehe..it was actually watching a teenagers drama series called popular. i can still visualize the exact moment when i and ayan (a have no clue what happen to him now) sat on the very the keras lantai at the Ungku Omar common area, mendongak mcm nak mati to watch that series.

i dont really enjoy it at first and i still dont know why i watched it at the first place. well i know that ayan influenced me to watch it only because he had no one else to watch it with. come to think bout it again, ayan made quite a good decision to pick me sbb nak diingatkan balik, sape je la yg mahu menonton cite2 bodoh camtu kat Uo dulu2.hahah....sume sek2 ganas.

bile dah tgk byk2 series rasenye cite tu best la jugak.byk la update my mind about what still yet to come in our life.heheh..and out of sudden TV2 telah menamatkan rancangan itu tanpa sebarang notis. hmmm...kinda pelik.kalu kat Uk, even drama sebodoh neighbours nak ditamatkan pun ade yg buat piket and mogok.kat malaysia tu tamat mcm takde apepun.i gues our people not really ready yet to stand up for their right and voice.or maybe they just dont have that option i dont know....or maybe malaysian are the kind of people yg "groupthink"...nak minimize conflict yada2..sila rujuk wiki utk maklumat lanjut

berbalik la kpd cite popular tu.dek kerana teringat ttg citer tu maka aku pun menontonnya kembali melalui youtube.hahaha...betapa boringnya kehidupan cui summer aku ni. dulu2 tgk mcm biase je but this second round, aku dah mule bijak appriciate script2 watak2 dlm cite tu.hahah..ade la betulnye jugak cite tu. hmm mmg intention die nak educate org tp maybe f5 otaka ku tak cukop matured lg nak analyse mende ni sume.

pikir2 balik...was i popular back there in taiping? hahaha...i was kinda well known object but for a wrong reason.not that those people knew me wrongly...they actually got it right.yeah..it was me yg tak betul. i admit it. "the first step to solve your problem is always to admit that you have a problem"..hehehe.id ont give a deym bout it anymore.sape2 yg igt tu kekalkanlah ingatan korg tu.wo knows someday that suweeeeeet memory of yours can make u rich kan.hahaha...those yg dah lupekan tu bagus la sbb tu tindakan yg terbijak since takde pekdahnye pun.hehehe

tp ape maksud popular eh? was aidah 4flat popular? or was it ina czarina? or adakah abg pil? definisi popular menurut answer.com ialah Widely known and discussed.errr...in that case..i was popular la.hahah...but personally for me, popular tu adalah those yg well accepted by all kind of people yg ade dlm komuniti tu. some poeple are Widely known and discussed for a bad reason and they doesnt really make others feel comfortable kan.

uhh i really give a though bout this post la.shud take it easy.hehehe...daaa...6 days more to balik...

5 years ago....

2007-06-08T11:45:00.000+01:00

How old were you?: ~ suweeeeeeet seventeen..well actually it was kinda sucks

Where did you go to school?: MRSM Taiping

Where did you work?: ~ errrr...i do help my mom bake tart nenas

Where did you live? ~ megalopolis Dungun ok...maju tau.

Where did you hang out?: ~ errr...not when im in dungun..theres nothing there actually on that time. come to think bout it again, i did enjoy klccing and midvalleying

How was your hair style?: ~ belah tengah.that hairstyle was so in that year..hahha

Did you wear braces?: ~ gigiku cantik ok

Did you wear glasses?: ~ yup...but not as tebal

Who was your best friend?: ~ i dont wanna be biased..hahaha...but those yg terlibat tau sape kamu semua kan kan kan...love u alll

Who was your regular-person crush?: ~ hmmm...there was one junior who was very deym cute that time.hahah..sadle die dah kawen now.....T-T

Who was your celebrity crush?: ~ david beckham....hahahaha

How many tattoos did you have?: ~ tatu haram ok..diulangi haram

How many piercings did you have?: ~ "i have enough holes on me..hahaha"...quote from one random guy i met from blogspot.

What car did you drive? ~ proton wira automatik bapaku itu.kaler biru karat2 sane sini

What was your favorite band/group?: ~ kumpulan spin..hahah gurau je ok...mase tu linkin park hybrid theory sgt la meletop sana sini...aku hafal lirik lagu mereke yg depressing tu

What was your worst fear? ~ kene pukol ngan gengste taiping mahupun gengste skolah.

Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: ~ suci lagi.peraturan skolah kate takle.

Had you driven yet?: ~ belom!!

Had you been arrested?: ~ abang aku penah la kot.aku budak skema kat skolah dulu.rambut kepet muke benut.study je la aku tau.hahahaha

Had you been to a real party yet?: ~ part harijadi anak buahku yg ke 2thn...heheh..new year celebration kat bintang tu pun kira party gak la kot.hmmm....

Had your heart broken? ~ every single day...sobs sobs T-T

Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter: ~ single kot...cintaku bertepuk sebelah tangan~~~

2007-06-07T00:46:00.001+01:00

hmmmm.....mmg skarang skarang musim kawin.dr kwn2 aku yg br berusia ala ala aku ni sehinggalah ke yg dah tua bercucu cicit.gamaknye mmg musim kahwen la skang ni.so dikesempatan ni naklah aku ucapkan tahniah kepada rakan2 aku yg bakal membina masjid kelak.jgn bina masjid di tanah org sudahla....semoga korg bahagia sehingga ke anak cucu dan doakanlah aku agar cepat ketemu jodoh yg seswai ok....

hehehe....oi oi..dlm diam2 paklah kite pun terkene jugak demam kahwin ni.diam diam paklah berawek rupenye.heheh..tahniah juga diucapkan kat paklah.semoga prestasi kerja meningkat dan semakin ceria dihari hari mendatang.sbg rakyat malaysia adalah menjd tanggungjwb sy mendoakan kebahagiaan paklah ok.heheheh....i expect akan tercipta byk reaction di atas perkahwinan paklah ni.sure ade yg suke n sure ade yg kata mcm mcm.relax..take it easy~~~~(lagu mika yg aku tgh dgr skang.heheh)biorla paklah tu nak kawen.die pun dah lame mendude dan sbg manusia biasa paklah juga ada naluri dan keperluan yg perlu dipenuhi.then ade yg soalkan ketidakpreferan paklah terhdp wanita melayu (frust ke paklah tak pilih mak u? hahah).personally kawen lah dgn bangsa apa pun kan.yg penting bahagia.baca artikel pasal paklah kawen dlm utusan aku terharu plak tibe.hehehe...

"Tuhan menciptakan banyak ruang dalam hati sanubari kita bagi berlainan orang untuk disayangi"..paklah

ckp pasal kwen ni aku terigt plak kawen2 dlm kisah2 dlm citer2 yg aku tgk.hahah...terigt gabriel solis dlm desprate housewife yg kawen dgn mayor but kecewa bile dpt tau yg actualy die kene kawen dgn mayor tu sbb mayor tu nak tarik undi latino. pastu aku terigt jugak kahwen dlm cerita2 laen yg nak menyatukan 2 3 negara hahahah. isk isk..teringin plak nak kawen.ade sape2 terase nak jdkan aku suami leh la contact ok.hehehe......okla..smoge semua bahagia dgn perkahwinan masing2.ameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen

Terima Kasih!

2007-06-06T13:27:00.000+01:00

nges nges nges...first of all aku nak ucapkan jutaan terima kasih kepada saudara Azam Alias kerana telah meluangkan sebanyak masa untuk mengaktifkan ruang comment pd blog kesayangan aku ini yg sekian lama tak boleh di aktifkan kerana skin blog yg complicated serta kekurangan ilmu pengetahuan IT dlm diri ini.hehhe...maceh en azam.kelak ade rezeki serta jodoh kita berjumpa ok.ngesnges...so ape lagi korg tunggu.yg mulut mcm bertih haritu kate nak komen2 ha skang leh la komen ye...hmmmmmmm

earlier today ive spent my not so summer evening bershopping kat princes street (orinces bukan princess ok) and aku berjaya menghapuskan nafsu utk memiliki beg H&M aku itu apabila menyedari aku bukanlah surfers spt yg ditargetmarketkan oleh H&M utk beg itu.kini beg ben sherman ku tak perlu la merisaukan diri utk di buang atau diabaikan spt beg2 yg lain. namun wpun aku berjimat disitu, aku telah menghabiskan 50quid terakhir ku utk membeli cokelat2 halal dan M&S.agak sukar mencaru yg takde alcohol serta barang2 sampingan yg laen.huh..sejam jugak aku berpeluh2 dlm kedai itu bersama makcik2 sertra pakcik2 veteran yg sering bershopping disitu. then pg tesco plak beli cokelat2 murahan utk anak2 buahku yg bersembilan itu memandangkan diorg tak menilai value mende2 murah ni spt ibu bapa mereka do. hahaha sorry la abg kakak aku sekalian,jgn mara kerana adik mu ni bakal memerlukan bantuan kewangan kamu semua selama 3 bulan akan datang ok.hahahah

well actually sebelum pg shopping aku telah terlebih dahulu menghabiskan 3 episod terakhir desprate housewife season 3.adalah menyedihkan apabila lynett watak kegemaran ku jd takbes seperti jahat serta menghidapi lymphoma di otaknya. kemudian idi brit pula membunuh diri (tp mcm tak sempat mati je...sbg menjdkan ianya lebey dramatik utk season4) dan susan meyers (watak plg aku benci) mendapat the happy ending story setelah kwen dgn mike dalfino.ahh benci...

then lepas shopping aku sambung plak tgk LOST season 3 sampai abes season.seperti juga season2 lost yg lalu, penonton mmg sure gile akan lost sehinggalah season yg baru akan kluar. tak pernah la expectation aku tepat ketika menonton cerita ini.tp aku agak seronok bile jack telah menjd agak gila.pdn muka dia itu yg slalu buat keputusan yg tidak tepat.

heheheh....actually aku tgh mencari idea ttg ulasan plak.asik2 cite pasal aku jek so aku sdr pun dah boring nak tulis.nanti aku nak mengulas la plak kah kah kah....hmmm....okla byer....

The Final Countdown

2007-06-04T00:10:00.000+01:00

Assalamualaikum...hmmmm...another 11 days more to go before im going back to my beloved home....owh home sweet home.its very rare to start a countdown at the 11th day before the event but yet what more can i do when i cavtualy have nothing to jot down here.

not really much preparation which i can do with very limited access to money.hahah...i only got another 40 quid to spend and yet im stilll dreming of having the poliester H&M bag which i saw earlier today. arghh ..... with this ketidakadaan duit makanya aku hanya akan bershopping di malaysia shjlah kelaj utk baju bajuan ku.namun sebnarnye aku sudahpun membeli 5 helai t shirt pd jualan penutup flip 2 hari yg lepas.hahaha...merasa jugak nak berbaju flip

semalam ku bermimpi...cey cey mcm lagu p ramlee la plak kan...actually smlm i have kinda wierd dream.its actually kinda nightmare at first.i sat next to somebody (i think it was my dad) yg tgh berbaring kat katil.the whole room in pure white ( i think it was a ward). then i saw another guy sitting nearby and stupidly that guy was ashraf sinclair.hahaha...kinda stupid dream but when i think bout it again, it was kinda cool...hahaha...well lupekan aje lah ttg mimpi itu sbb tak berfaedah pun...

bangun quite early after terasa tercabar dgn kata2 housemte yg kate aku susah bangun pg. walaupun hari ahad yg so deym sunyi, i managed to gather all my spirit and soul utk bangun dan mandi.hahah...then seperti yg telah aku bayangkan sebelum tidur mlm sebelumnya itu, aku pun ke carboot....muahahaha...after nearly a decade ( 3 bulan je kot) tak ke carboot akhirnya aku berjaya juga ke carboot itu. like usual cabaran utama ke carboot ialah utk berjumpa dgn kaum2 melayu yg bermastautin kat sini. semua jd serba tak kene je especially when bertembung dgn post2grad yg baru. kang senyum kang diorg wat dek je.tak senyum kang kate aku kekwat plak.hmmm..ape ape je la.the best way is to avoid them dgn cara pura2 tak nampak.sorry la ek.hahaha.....mula2 tu igt nak beli dumbell (gini ke ejaannye?) namun pabila second round ke kedai itu, ianya dah pun dibeli oleh sepasang suami isteri veteran yg aku sdr pun tak sure brape lame lg akan bertahan.

lepas ke carboot aku ke......stadium menonton rugby seven series edinburgh. mule2 mcm tak excited sbb mane la pnah aku enjoy2 sukan ni selain dr melihat pemainnya yg menarik itu.hahah..tp bile pk2 yg aku sbenarnye mmg takde xtvt laen maka aku pun pergi je la bersama pei pei ang james wafi n hazem. seronok la plak tgk esp mase scotland lawan kenya itu. terkinja2 aku seketika mengalahkan mamat2 sober yg laen. pastu mase tgk all black lawan pun mcm best gak sbb tgk org2 gedang lari laju mcm lori.aku amek byk gambar and tuhan sj yg tau sort of pictures yg aku amek the most.muahaahhahahaha.....all in all mmg seronok tgk rugby n im lookin foward utk tgk world cup rugby 2007 september kelak (pelik sbb ade 1 game tersesat kat sini wpun host sbenarnya ialan france)

well...itu ape yg berlaku la dlm kehidupan ku ini.hehehe...but the most interesting part is when ibrahim suddenly IM aku.hmmm...actually br 2 3 ari lepas aku terpikir pasal die.hahah..hey baim.reply la msg2 aku tu balek.its kinda sad sbb aku tak berkesempatan nak p soton tmpt die tu.takde rezeki dan jodoh la nak wat camne.tp mmg sad sbb ni final year die so pasni mmg takde peluang dah nak p soton sbb mmg dah takde tujuan.papepun goodluck la dlm final exam tu n aku doakan kejayaan die.ameeeeeeeeeeeeeen

aku dah add counter kat blog ni namun so far aku rase half dr bilangan tu aku la yg view...biase la kan blog aku ni syok sdr.hahaha....tp aku kisah ape pun kan kan kan. ok la kan.aku nak memenuhi masa aku dgn menonton desprate housewife 3 plak ni.tinggal lg 5 episode je nak abeskan lepas tu nak pulun lost plak.ade lg 6 episode lom tuntun.hmmmpastu nak abeskan sume yg toriq dah download tu.muahahaha......

wassalam

BIsmillah...

2007-06-01T00:39:00.000+01:00

Assalamualaikum

Alhamdullillah...atlast ive got the chance to update my beloved blog after being abondoned for a very deym god knows how long time. and at last i managed to put the chat box inside my blog.well...after another very deym only god knos how long time. dan dgn lafas bismillah ianay telahpun dirasmikan td.hehehe

its been month since i start my so callled summer hooooliday.its not that theres sumting wrong with the holiday.its actually the term summer is really unsuitable for this 2007 north hemisphere summer.its cold...dammmm and so i dont know why windy. ive don so many thing to mengisi all the leisure time i got and yet there are still more time left. ive watched dozens of movies from the best oscar nominated films to the worst cicak man...ive visited almost all my fav websites...ive cooked all my makanan kegemaran namun masa lapang masih melingkari kehidupan ini.

dan dgn masa lapang itulah makanya dapatlah diri ini mengisi blog ini. berdasarkan kalender yg terpampang di desktop rumetku ini, aku masih mempunyai 14 hari penuh warna warni sebelum aku pulang ke malaysia oh tanah airku. 2 whole weeekssss....arhhh....can't wait that long anymore.masakan ibuuuuuuuuuu......masakan mamak.........tomyam batu 50........dunkin donut.....secret recipi and all the halal fast food kat malaysia....uhh tetibe perut mendengdangkan lagu keroncong pula.i cant imagine why sum of my frens takmao pulang ke tanah air.well they sure get some experience but i just think its not worth it. sepanas panas malaysia itu...aku tetap suka berada disana apa apa pun...owh malaysia...

eventhough im so happy puppy muppy nak pulang ni, namun kegembiraan itu bagaikan dibalut cey cey...oleh kemiskinan serta kesuntukan wang yg sedang aku alami skang ni. so to cut the expendices and watsoeva, ive decided not to buy buah tangan for my families and frens in malaysia.i will only buy chocolate and sweets for them..hehe poor you guys kan..sorry la..its not my best of kewangan time.ill try next year ok.but cokelat bukan sebarang cokelat ok...mark and spencers tau (sorry la M&S taja yahudi la but ianya sedap)

yeah.... i think that's all....nak try edit2 blog ni sket2...
ok bye

salam

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2007-03-21T09:18:00.000Z

oooppsss....suddenly it's 2007 and it's already end of march...like skipping a whole year.mcm dah takde mende nak tulis kat blog.it's always like that.hangat2 tahik ayam chandu.hmmm...so much thing happen.sedih,seronok,sedih,gembira..alternate.but all in all my second semester in second year is the most devastating moment in my life yet.i never felt so much like this before.so much hate grow in me.i hate almost everything.alhamdulillah skarang tgh deal wif it.menerima kenyataan..hehehe

faking it!

semoga selamat

2006-11-25T20:26:00.000Z

assalamaualaikum...sudah dua bulan mende alah blog ni di ketepikan dr diari seharian.sampaikan terlupe username aku td.isk isk.bukan bz.malas nak tulis dah.mcm dah takde idea nak tulis mende. tp bile terkenangkan mase tue2 nanti nak bace balik mende alah ni maka aku tulis la jugak entry ni.heh.harini....dah 2minggu aku startkan aku nye program intensif belajar.exam dah nak dekat.taun ni takle nak resit2 paper.gagal makanya resit year la terus.nauzubillah...taknak aku menjd begitu.Ya Allah, semoga aku selamat menduduki peperiksaan aku ni kelak.takde la menarget ape2 utk peperiksaan ku nih.cume kalau boleh nak la byk2 A.taknak C.ameeeeeen...tgh bajet2 nak dpt scholarship sainbury utk gatsby summer school.takpun nak p italy field trip.aaaaa....semoga dimurahkan rezeki aku ni.nak mengharapkan status pendidikan aku skang mmg la mcm jauh je nak mencapai cita2 tu tp iAllah dgn berkat Mu ya Allah....

exam bukan lah mende yg aku risaukan skang ni.exam tu mcm angin je.dtg dan pergi.tp sebenarnye risau la jugak.aku bukan nye prepare ape2 pun.though lectures sume aku dtg tp aku bukannye paham pun yg mende alah lecturer tu tgh terangkan.isk isk.ya Allah, mudahkanlah kepahaman aku.nak study sepanjang hari.tp br start 2 jam je dah start tgk youtube la, FMA la naruto la serta mcm mcm lg.ya Allah semoga diberikan aku kelapangan dan semangat utk mengulangkaji pelajaran ku ya Allah.

enough said bout study...same je.skang keadaan emosi amatlah tak stabil.sehari atleast 2 jam membazir melayan perasaan je. tatau la.nak kate hormone tak cukop bukannye aku ade kitar ape2 pun yg perlu diikuti.sgt cpt amek ati.ape2 yg kecik pun aku amek ati.arghh....kalau boleh nak je jd happy go lucky.takyah pk mende2 yg sedey.setiap kali b4 tdo itula keazaman aku tp bile bgn esok, even smallest thing mcm tak ditegur housemate pun boleh jdkan aku sgt down smpi kul11 pg. kesian jd kwn2 aku.aku tau sampai waktu ni 90% diorg dah start annoyed dgn aku punye perangai.ya Allah al jalil, aku mohon agar kau permudahkan transformasi diriku ni kepada insan yg lebih baik.

ckp pasal mood aku yg mcm cuaca kat edinburgh ni aku amatlah bersimpati dgn housemate aku.nak tak nak kene lah mengadap aku yg mcm baby kecik ni.smoga ini semua jd latihan la utk korg jg anak2 kelak.bukan nye aku secara lahiriah nye bengong camni.ko pun kenal kan mcm mane aku last year.takde moody2 camni.cume ade la seketul due keadaan diri yg tak stabil.aku tau ape masalahnye dgn diri aku ni.cume tak de usaha nak mengubahnye.tiap2 malam aku bertekad tp tak smpi 10minit lepas tu aku ulang balik mende2 yg akuy tak spatutnye buat. benci sungguh.ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku mau jd org yg lebih baik

susah kan.kite dah tau ape yg tak betul.cume nak membetulkannye je lg.jauhilah syaitan dan hawa nafsu ku ini ya Allah.kalu la ade posion ygboleh menghapuskan hawa nafsu aku nak je minum.kalu ade ayat yg menjauhi syaitan dr hidup aku ni nak je aku amalkan.amatlah menyedihkan sekali.ni bukan salah syaitan dah ni.ni mmg slalah diri sdr.mane boleh nak slaahkan syaitan kalu kite yg buat salah.bile kite buat salah maksudnye diri kite la yg tak kuat keimanan kerana tunduk dgn hasutan syaitan

yuhhh....nak jd insan yg baik.nak jd insan yg sempurna.jgn la ape yg aku tulis ni kelak aku lupekan mlm ni jugak.ya Allah..im in need of a constant reminder....

sebulan berlalu.

2006-10-02T10:10:00.000+01:00

assalamualaikum.well dah already 1 month since the last post.now im back in edinburgh.well dah lame dah balik sini pun.byk mende dah jd dlm satu bulan yg pendek tu.latest is aku kene chicken pox.arghh.dlm byk2 venue nak kene chicken pox...mase ni la jugak.isk isk isk.namun bagus la jugak.merasa la aku bagai mane feel chicken pox ni.hehehe.tak berape best.gatal.isk isk isk.actually br je lepas balik jumpe doktor yg lebey kurg mcm tayah jumpe pun takpe je .nasihat die bg same je ngan nasihat yg azmil n mahat bagi.(azmil n mahat is my housemate)even jenis2 ubat pun same jugak.isk isk isk.dah nak sihat br la jumpe doktor.hahah.salahkan system kat sini.ganjil sunguh.so arini tak ke kelas n lab.esok je la aku pg.

sebulan.well dlm beberape ari lg sorg kwn aku akan ilang.sgt sedey die dah nak pg.semua pun dah tak mcm dulu lg dah.well maybe die igt aku tak rase pape tp honestly tanpe doe kelak mmg dah tak best .aku tak jumpe2 die pun .bukan sbb taknak jumpe.cume aku sgt tak reti nak handle keadaan camni. i cant show rase sympathy sbb tu akan buat die lebey sedey.n i can tunjuk muke sedey sbb tu pun tak elok.so tatau nak wat ape maka lebey baik kalu tak jumpe.tp mmg lookin foward to meet die b4 pape pun la.sorry.i wish u a very fat goodluck in the future.semua ni dugaan n cabaran n surely sgt ade hikmahnye yg sgt takj terhingga.kite tatau plan Allah kan dan sesungguhnya He's plan is the greatest.

now is ramadhan.bulan yg sgtlah byk kelebihannye.puasa Allhamdulillah cukop.mungkin dr segi kualiti tu masih boleh dimantapkan lagi.bukan ape.pedih2 chicken pox ni dah mcm zikir plak rasenye.aku asik tido je.hahaha.dah la luse ade test dynamic cells yg aku tak study sgt pun.isk isk.tarawikh alhamdulillah masih sempurna.semoga Allah menerima ibadahku ini.ameen

owh ya.my cat mati kene langgar.lebey menyedihkan lagi die mati mase carik makanan utk anak2 die yg baru berusia sebulan jagung.fyi due ekor dah kucing aku mati dlm keadaan yg serupa.isk isk.dah la mati mase ari aku nak balik edinburgh.kesan anak2 die takde sape nak look after sbb sume org pun turun KL.aku pun letakan sepeket makanan mewah kat dlm sangkar dorg tu.mujur la survive smpi skang.mak aku kate skang sume tgh gemok2 gile.cume now ketenteraman mereke agak terjejas dek kepulangan anak2 along yg terkenal dgn kadar khianat haiwan yg tinggi.isk isk isk.kasihan along yg perlu beraya di amsterdam itu.dah la bandar plg tak mulia di dunia tu.nak sambut hari mulia.takpe la....sbb kerja.anggaplah iabadat jugak.

mama said that the terungs and peria yg aku tanam dah membuahkan hasil.peria2 dah pun digoreng dgn ikan bilis manakala terung masih lg dlm proses menebalkan dinding ovari.namun aku tak smpt nak makan teterung itu.takpe la.atleast terung2 tu semua jd pengubat rindu mak aku kpd aku.kan kan kan.sure manis gile terung yg aku tanam dgn penuh kasih syg itu.cili2 pun byk jugak aku tanam.eii rindu nak kutip cili n buat cili jeruk.aaaaa...nak cli jeruk.

smlm tidur n aku termimpi air tebu.aduh susahnye nak carik mende alah tu.well aku tak p carik pun.aku suh wafi n sit yg carikkan.dgrnye kat kedai cine ade mende2 tu namun pabila sit tgk semuanya dah abes.arghh...mimpi yg sial itu.mainan tidur yg memeritkan.dah la org tgh sakit2 ni.ade je nak kene pukol ni.

hmmm...takde isu besar yg nak diketengahkan seriusly.so abes disini shjlah nukilan ini.buhsan pun.nak kene study ni.test dah dekat.isk isk isk....

merdeka! merdekat! merdeka!

2006-08-31T17:42:00.000+01:00

ahha...Alhamdulillah..its been 49 years since Malaysia merdeka.49 years is not a long time.well its quite long kalau dilihat dr segi umur manusia.kedut sane kedut sini.by that age perut pun dah menggeleber.but if we look in a country context,a 49years old country is actually just a little baby yg br nak belajar jln2.telan bulat..Malaysia masih muda.but dlm kemudaan Malaysia,im as a pure malaysian born blood wut so eva amat berbangga dgn ape yg my tempat tumpah darah tanah air ku ini telah capai.well though economically now we are now not so that stable and many stuff mcm politic crisis and even social problem menumbuh bagai cendawan after hujan tropika yg lebat,we still membangun sbg sebuah negara yg maju.forget about singapore...tak byk nation yg membangun like malaysia after 49years merdeka.negara-negara like india,indonesia and all the other members of ASEAN (lupekan about singapore) still strugle nak menstabilkan keadaan negara diorg.Malaysia might not have teknologi2 canggih like India or Thailand tp Malaysia jugak takde masalah kemiskinan or keganasan.we develop slowly and we develop thoroughly.membangun dr semua aspect la.

tp bukan itu yg nak dicakapkan actually.let malaysia membangun.cume yg diworriedkan is how malaysian now (tak kire tue mude) menghargai kemerdekaan itu.wut merdeka bg diorg.well tayah ckp pasal diorg.let talk bout what merdeka means to me.personally for me,merdeka is not just mendapat freedom dr penjajah but also mempertahankan kebebasan itu supaya ia will not berulang in any other way.the first part of merdeka tu mmg dah dicapai 49years ago.susah payah pahit jerih tunggang tebalik all the pejuang kemerdekaan amat dihargai.tak ternilai kepade bangsa negara agama.the second part of kemerdekaan itu is actually the hardest thing.its not something that we can capai.it something that we must do..continously..sentiasa tanpa henti.non stop.well many people think that malaysia will not dijajah again mcm dulu.maybe not phisically.hehe..jgn lupe.lebanon,iraq,afghanistan semua pun pernah merdeka once.now ape jd?though technically its not actually their fault (damn that!!!).well thats not important.ape yg nak ditekankan here is that it is not impossible sebuah negara yg merdeka dijajah secara physically.hmm..bile cakap camni some might say.."leave that to our leader..they can protect us"....maka hilanglah semangat cintakan negara disitu.protecting Malaysia is not onlye tanggungjwb kerajaan.its ours as malaysian punye tanggungjwb tak kire la camne pun kite buat.

penjajahan minda is the second thing la of course.mcm mcm pengaruh luar yg ade skang.well..the benefit of globalisation.world without sempadan.skang ni mcm mcm ade.ape yg adekat tempat lain sume ade kat malaysia ni.its funny that some of the followers not even tau ape perjuangan group2 yg diorg tiru2 imej ni.kesian.nak wat camne.dah dijajah.heh.even me mylesf pun dah dijajah secara mindanye.mmg susah nak dipertahankan.ade yg lebey prefer use bahase luar.well semua pun tau "i sound stupid if i speak malay" tu.that isu menyebabkan kemarahan even di peringkat kabinet pun.sampai ade person suruh anugerah tu ditarik balik sbb mencemarkan budaya(i wonder if our name tiru gaya barat will mencemarkan budaya ke tak?)).haha..kuman di seberang magnified gajah kat depan mate tak nampak.penjajahan mindajugak la ni gamaknye.

tertarik dgn kenyataan one macik yg terberanak mase merdeka day..she said "merdeka is freedom...free from everything termasuklah kejahatan".bernas makcik tu.

all in all...celebrate la kemerdekaan yg dah dicapai dgn menghargai ape yg dah dibuat oleh pejuang2 b4 kite.and hargailah kemerdekaan itu dgn mempertahankannya in any other way pun.jgn dijajah ok!!!!

hey hey...talking about merdeka celebration.not much i can do dlm daerah isolate2 mcm dungun ni.here sambutan kemerdekaan sumer private like lumbe haram,sumbang mahrah perhaps..heheh..wakil rakyat sibuk wat party utk Af kot.pape je la.so since dah tade pape nak wat i watched TV.i tontoned all the 6 cenel free yg ade kat Malaysia..eh 5 je actually sbb my place tak dpt TV9...plus 1 cenel berbayar which is Astro Ria.all these channel is malaysia based punye siaran ok.i started with astro Ria sbb this cenel mmg tiap2 tahun buat konsert merdeka.well mcm tahun2 sudah jugak i tak nampak how this consert can help in menerapkan semangat cintakan negara n hargai kemerdekaan itu.though adelah selingan2 mcm pesanan2 from artis2 but all the pesanan hanya tinggal pesanan.tak berkesan langsung.dgn lagu2 nyanyin yg sangatlah tak berkaitan dgn mane2 elemen patriotik atau kemerdekaan,dgn gelagat remaja muda mudi yg terkinja sana sini lompat jerit tak tentu hale and lebey memeranjatkan lagi even ade macik with anak anak kecil turut serta dlm konsert yg tak berfaedah itu.bile suruh jerit malaysia boleh ke,merdeka ke semua jerit...bile tanye semua jawab..tp semua tu mainan bibir aje.tak ikhlas langsung.not from hati la.yg bestnye ade some peminat yg dah ade kat situ since pukul5.konsert start kul 9.17..maghrib kat padang la gamaknye semua yer.tahan pulak wudhu korg dlm gelumang jantan betine bukan muhrim tu.

bosan dgn itu the i swithed to RTM1..saluran kerajaan ni.not much la.well atleast takla ade konsert kinja2 tak berpaedah tu.best jugak la tgk menari2..nyanyi2 lagu patriotik semua tuh.jalur gemilang n stuffs semua.gembire sgt.tp sebak bile tgk para tetamu kehormat yg selama ni sibuk ckp pasal merdeka n smangat kepatriotikan cant even sing lagu2 as simple as kerana mu malaysia.oi..korus pun kumat kamit ke.igt aku ni bute ke takle nak differentiate miming ngan nyanyi betul.kesian sungguh.malu aje.same la like ketak teaching its kids to walk straight tu.well you all might consider to bring lyrics together in da future.tak pun install la slide besar ke so leh la semua skali nyanyi.takdela mulur wa wa wa mu mu mu mcm ape je.

the worst is yet to come.i bukak TV3.hahah...the most lawak stesen TV ade kat malaysia.they siarkan Black Maria...filem hyper komersial without any art sentimental value (atleast for my tahap penilaian)yg even gagal dpt box office tu.how on earth this movie can generate patriotism dlm masyarakat?and they even called that merdeka special...hahaha....pastuh every 15minute will abe iklan siti kawen.siti siti siti.artis lain pun kawen jugak.well maybe siti tu artis no 1 negara (unofficial gelaran created by media yg kemudiannye jd identiti siti)..tp perlu ke semua heboh2 pasal siti sampai merdeka pun nampak kecik je di mata.hmm kenape tak siarkan siaran langsung dr kamar siti skali..dah alang2 kan...owh now i know..mayde duit semua abes dlm pelaburan siti kawen kan.

nTV7 n TV8 mmg mengambil keputusan tak melibatkan diri kot.tatau la im not sure.mase i bukak both pun tgh siarkan cerite2 dr korea ke cine ke tatau la.dgn hanya menyiarkan countdown merdeka tak bermakna kite meraikannye kan but i must admit yg dgn tidak menyiarkannya pun tak bermaksud tak menghargai.media la medium terpenting actually dlm memeriahkan sekaligus menerapkan all the smgt cintakan negara itu.

so since i pretty disappointed dgn siaran semua tu i pun tgk la TV2.hmm..cerite Gandhi.though cerite tuh pasal kemerdekaan india but Tv2 really deserve a penghargaan sbb filem pilihan die telah success dlm memberi kesedaran betapa susahnye sebuah kemerdekaan itu utk digrab and di protect.wpun Tv2 tak siarkan paloh or embun or sarjan hassan or left adnan or bukit kepong or wuteva...atleast they know how to help generate patriotism smangat dlm jiwa rakyat secara beretika.tak langsung mementingkan rating and tak payah berbelanje besar.mmg gandhi dah bayk kali kuar malaysian TV but atleast try la to watch it once dgn penuh perhatian n nikmati n hayatilah semua persoalan2 dan tema yg cube nak diutarakan oleh filem itu.ohh..mujurlah ade Tv2.

dikala most of malaysia TV station strugle menyiarkan sambutan merdeka yg boleh menjana rating tertinggi wpun tau yg ianya bakal tidak meninggalkan kesan langsung...ade due station TV antarabangsa yg menyiarkan ttg Malaysia yg sgt sgt menyebabkan i rasa sooooooooooo proud of being a malaysian.first was Discovery Channel. they siarkan about SMART tunnel of malaysia.that documentary told about SMART (whixh stand for Storm bla bla bla Tunnel) construction yg amat mencabar.ape yg membanggakan is that the tunnel is actually the first ever attemp dwiprupose tunnel in the world. and the keganjilan of the technique penggalian yg digunakan dlm membina tunnel tu pun amat mengagumkan.i sgt impressed.tak sangke selama ni projek yg i kutuk2 sbb menyebabkan kesesakan lalu lintas kat sg besi tuh telah berjaya mningkatkan smgt patriotisme dlm diri ku ni.second channel id the national geographic.maybe its just a coincidence tp papepun diorg siarkan la.they siarakn a two hours show about Malaysia.pasal KLCC n pasal hutan in Malaysia.uhh...sgt teruja.wpun yg pasal KLCC tu i dah tgk 3 kali..i tetap sgt bangga.sape tak bangga bile tau yg Malaysia skang tgh diceritakan oleh NGEO kat seluruh dunia.sadly rekod bangunan tertinggi dah diamek oleh Shanghai but still KLCC is the only one tallest building yg disokong totally oleh konkrit.bangunan lain pakai besi keluli.n plus sistem cerujuk KLCC is the deepest in the world.hehehe....bangga sgt.(they even siarkan pasal Inside Mecca yg turut melibatkan malaysian..uhh bangga)

hmmm....bangga jd anak Malaysia.Syukur kepada Allah yg telah byk memberi nikmat kepada kita semua.being outside Malaysia telah byk memberikan ruang for me to think about wut Malaysia dah bg kat i.Malaysia Malaysia Malaysia...Terima Kasih kepada pejuang2 yg telah berkorban menegakkan hak kemedekaan malaysia.terima kasih kepada pemerintah2 malaysia yg telah berjaya mempertahankan kedaulatan negara.jasa2 u all mmmg takkan dpt di balas.wut i can do is just to mencintai Malaysia.n mencintai Malaysia will help me in achieving the best in wut ever i do to serve her.

Kerana Mu Malaysia!!!!

kawan kawan aku lagik..haha

2006-08-29T15:23:00.000+01:00

nearly due bulan baru leh ade kesempatan nak update.well rasenye amatlah rasional kalu cerite kawan2 disambung kembali.keskeskes...cerite kelewatan ni kite cite len kali ok.

hmmm...last arituh citer pasal kwn kwn kat pt.lepas tuh aku yg baik ni dpt tawalan ke tepeng.though b4 tuh ade la beberape minggu stuck kat kota putra tp itu amatlah tak significant sbb terlalu skejap n sgtlah berpuak2 gile mase tuh.(pt vs ytdung).haha..burok gile name skool.bile masuk tepeng amatlah culture shock.satu semester habes utk menyesuaikan diri aje.amatlah susah.dugaan n cabaran silih berganti.those yg terlibat thanks though for such experiences.sgt mengajar erti idop.hahaa...wpun skolah tu sgt la pahit n tak menarik tp byk gak la kengkawan yg dpt kat sini.plg best is my bestest of all kind of fren iaitu mr bee.chibby dinzly name die.hehe..sgt lah baik.even after all these past six years kite still same jek kan.aku rinduk gile kat mu wei.pasnih kite dah takle nak joli moli dah sbb ko nak start keje dah.waaaaaaaa.......byk gile bee ni tolong aku secara rohani,jasmani mahupun pape je.bee bee bee...

abes citer pasal bee..aku ade gak 2 org kwn yg cenekel bername syazmin and toher.hehe..kepale same kot.taste pun kan.kite pnah share something kan.hahahaha...babi jek bile igt balik zaman jahiliah kite.syazmin yg intake keberape ntah knal aku sbb duk depan bilik aku je.die tuh jd jambu abg jkk yg tak cool tuh.aku rase name die adzrul hilmi.huh.wpun mule2 mcm bangang je tp lame2 esp bile dah tak bersame br la rase best kwn ngan die ni.au ngan syazmin telah pun bersepasukan thesis yg turut melibatkan toher kenapiah.insan kecil ini dr jauh nampak mcm reptilia aje.ala ala cicak.hahaha.mulut die sgt laju serta pikiran die amat pickup.toher ibarat CNN.kelajuan datanye menjangkau 9087gb per milisec.gossip hangat sume die tau.hahaha....mule2 nampak toher dgnpasukan skema die tuh.dak dak SIC.hahaha...tp lame2 jdbaik tanpa diketahui bagaimana caranya.kini die engineer made in germany.syazmin plak seorang peguam dr holy ground.holy lah sgt.hahaha.miss u all...

selain itu ade lg.ni mcm satu grup.consist of 4 cute boys.hehehe....wpun aku tau most of the time aku tersisih tp mereke inilah sebenarnye kwn kwn yg memahami.mereka paham ape yg aku rasen mereke byk membantu aku ketika aku jatuh.owh kamu i miss u all.mule2 baik mase kat psp kan.mase prep malam.aku pressure gile duk kat kelas lalu p library.nampak sketul tmpt kosong lalu terhegeh2 menyelinap kat situ.pastu esok nye pule.dan esoknye.dan setersunye lalu jd kwn baik.sorg name nesh.muke cam wak jawa sket tp die mmg melayu tulen.skang kat RC.aku ske die sbb die suke menulis.leh la jd journalist kan mak kan.mase nak masuk kmk kunun nak sebilik.pastuh digagalkan oleh budak skolah maahad yg psiko tu.pastuh masuk kmb pun igtkan nak sebilik tp warden asing ikut kos plak.mmg kite tak jodoh nesh.hmmm...then ade hazwan.wpun tak brape skepale tp leh la join gak.best skali mase p umah atuk die kat taman polis KL tuh.best gile ronggeng2 skema zaman remaje fashion victim dulu2.bile tgk balik pics2 trigt lak asal usul aku dak2 kampung.ngan hazwan mmg dah lost con sejak spm.rasenye die kat UTM kot.last but not least is ameng.ameng is kinda cute.hahaha....maafkana ku atas perkare2 lalu itu.anggaplah mcm takd epape.out of all ameng ade kefahaman sket ttg mesalah aku.cume maybe die sdr pun tak realise kelebihan itu.hehehe....ameng skang kat melben.nak aku p melben jln tp takde duit lg.iAllah b4 die grad aku p la sane.waaa.....rindunye saat2 kanak2 dolu

sape je lg kn2 ku.ade la rumet aku yg aku rindui kerana dr skolah dulu kite jrg bertemu.kepade ijat yg skang kat kuktem.aku rindu kat hang.hahah.die br je add aku kat frenster.sgt la black metal die ni ngan geng2 nye iatu bell n fatah.pastuh ade dak bername zamry yg juge merupakan biro agama ku.hahahaha.....best kan jd biro.die ni sudi lend kan telinge die kat aku.sorry la sbb tertidur disaat2 itu.hahahaha..bodoh gile.pastuh ade lg.ade pierre andre yg br jek dpt kontek after 3 years tak jumpe.ni pun teman yg suke share2 ni.hmm..best best.rindu korg semua.hahahaha.....

abes la zaman2 kegemilangan skolah menengah aku yg chumel itu.pastu dpt la masuk KMK kejap.2bulan kot.mase tuh terbukak la klique tepeng yg sgt asabiah.nak add pun acap panjang je.die sgt la menjd klik yg tak disangke2.out of all.haha...acap ni slalu jugak menjd pengintip aku mase kat kelas dolu kan.nak nak bile time jr rehat.aku slalu suh die ni cek mate sorg insan fingger ni.owh.thansalot acap kerana memberikan aku kepastian.pastuh aku kenal ngan 3klasmet aku.naima,cik mat (aku yg reka nama tuh ok) dn mede budak sas.kami satu kepale dan mmg takdir kami bersama.ahh namun semua amik medic kecuali aku.siot aje.nanti one day kite gather2 ok.rindunye.kelas mase kat KMK pun best.kelasmet aku sume best best tp since kwn skejap je aku lupe name2 most of them.aku igt t'ah ngan linda je.siannyer.

dush pastuh masuk KMB.nak sgt ucapakan thanx kat mo3a.kelasmet plg memorable kat dunia ini.kmb pun skol plg best sbb sume org pun tak peduli ttg org lain (kecuali anak2 saleh yg sial).kelasmet pun sumernye kepale bingung.best gile la.well wpun kelas lain pun duk claim kelas diorg terbest namun aku pasti kelas aku plg best.ratu2 tido dlm kelas tuh.huh.i miss them all.plg signifikan is duroa sbb aku slalu kaco die.hahaha.yg len tuh signifiken gak la.trigt lawak dayah.B teacher B..ahahhaha...

hmm...pastuh ade la rakan2 blok aku yg juge ditakdirkan ade satu otak yg same frekuensi.sume pemalas nak study.rumet aku jge.owh aku rindu juge rumet ku fuad kerana kite jrg bertemu.hahahaa....sorry r met,aku bz la.pastuh ade azam yg kecil molek.sas gak.bebudak sas berkepale sgt cam hamdam gak.hahheha.smpi skang kontek lg kan kan kan.dtg la edin oi.ade aus (trigt gaduh2 kawen ngan babi)hahahahahha.....

KMB takde la kwn2 yg rapat individually.kami rapat secara koloni.Colony of the Engs...wpun berpuak2 tp bile bersame kami bersatu.clan beauty tentunye clan aku.hahah..anepusang,jay,qama,adeq,yus (sering indenial)n nesh yg mantan.hahaha...best gile kan skolah kite dulu.wewewewe..rindunye saat2 itu.kenangan punggung plg best la out of all.best giler...

daaa....abes citer pasal kawan2 aku yg dah berpisah2 ni.skang kat edin.sokwn2 masih lom berpisah.miss them all gak.hahah.

kawan-kawan-kawan-kawan ku...

2006-07-03T16:42:00.000+01:00

this is a story about my kawan-kawan sepanjang aku idop 21years kat dunia yg sgt fana ini.pertemuan dan perpisahan tuh sbg bukti kefanaan bumi ni.hehey...i dah byk ilang n dpt kwn.silih berganti.byk yg dah aku lupe n tinggalkan.but that doesnt mean that they are not my frens anymore.kwn ttp kwn ok.cume keadaan tak mengizinkan for me to terus berkeep in touch wif them all.sorry u guys.without u all my life woldnt be this colourful...thansalot!!

as far as i can remember my first close fren was a girl named diana.i knew her mase tinggal kat golf height seremban.her father is akhbar baba n her mother is mak cik azizan.sorry la.i dont really have much memories yg masih boleh diingatkan sgt.mase tuh sgt la tak mumayyiz lg.but i still can remember the lubang pagar yg connect our house so kitorg leh p main sng sng jer.my kakak mase tuh derjah 5.she used to buat teh susu and forced us to berkelah dgn die gunekan cwn plastik kecik2 free gist beli meggi.haha..that time i was 5 and diana was 4.hahaha...we used to play tanah merah yg dibawahnye ade taik yg my dad gali from loji umah us yg tersumbat.so geli bile igtkan balik.huuuuu...then my dad kene pindah jelebu.so i dah tak jumpe diana after tu.(actually jumpe lg tp tak igt muke die camne so tatau la)

kat jelebu plak.mase tu i was 6.the first grup of frens ialah from my taman perumahan which is taman seri chempedak.muahaha.i still can remember ijah n ina panjat tembok pagar tepi my house (biase la bebudakkan jakun tgk org baru pindah)ijah or faizah tu sebaya ngan me while her sister ina (liana mude setahun.after thar they have brother name afiq jugak n sorg lagi yg sgt chumel (mase tu la..skang tatau pejadi) name haziq if im not mistaken.selalu main same2 sbb takde ramai org at that time.then i kenal yanti yg duduk depan my house.i dont really like her and her family yg seems so like pelik (jahat).hahaha.when im in darjah 1 abg lan, imi and wati pindah to that taman from melaka.they also jd my close fren.main mcm mcm.lumbe lari la..men basikal la.abg lan and i used to curik pokok cactus from umah cine and i still have that pokok now.sgt membiak.hahaha...i still can remember pacik zamry (ayah they all) melarang anak2nye yg jahat itu dr berkwn dgn i sbb kononnye i jahat (semuanye salah my bro yg p bukak rumah kosong next to our house tu).tp tak berthn lama sbb nafsu berkwn kanak2 ni mmg takle dihalang.hahaha.then i kenal erlia and adiknye firdaus yg satu skolah ngan i.erlia was my classmate (3kuning,4 and 5 Arif).they all anak cikgu so kinda skema la.kene balik awal kalau main2 and kene study bagai.they cant join us yg nakal2 ni (me,imi,wati,lan,ija,afiq,ina)main2 ganas2 masuk kuar semak longkang hutan bagai.hahaa...my dad pun slalu tumpangkan erlia n firdaus balik skolah.hahaha..sape lg ek kwn2 mase kanak2 dulu.hmm...i remember bab or rashidah.se is so fat at that time.tak pnah dgr citer after pindah tu.hmm...there are also yim..bab's lil bro.mase tuh die naive.dtg2 my umah sambil jerit "abg aafiq!!(2 3 kali)jom main longkang!!".of course la my mom wont allow it.bodoh je mase kecik2 dulu.hahahaha...ayim the spoiler.ida and her bro adi (fren of ayim)..her house was very nice sbb halaman die mcm berlayer so boleh main panjat2 n kapal karam.konon2 la.we used to nyanyi lagu suriram ramai lepas tu gelak2 sbb salah pantun verse.hahaha.selain tu...ade la manja,atok (mmg die mcm atok),huda n adiknye (dah lupe name),anak2 cikgu zali yg i tak igt langsung name diorg (jahat suke petik bunge my mom),ain and aie(sgt nyah),shikin,along and angah.tringat plak pasal atok.i once telah memasukkan suar dlm atok ke dlm beg ngajinye lalu memberitahu rakan2 lain yg atok bwk spende p ngaji sbb takut terberak.hahahaha...mase kat taman tu wel all slalu main bola berapi,roundest,polisentry,jogging (i always cheating balik umah) n longkang.kakak mobil slalu marah sbb we all slalu masuk kedai mobil dgn kaki yg sgt kotor.hahahaha...

in my school which was sekolah rendah kebangsaan undang jelebu,i have wafi azimin,hidayah,aishah,hanafi yg i knew since kingdergarten lg.but most of the like aishah n hanafi i jd tak berape rapat after masuk darjah 3 sbb kene tukar kelas ikut rank.i still contact wafi but i dont know wut happen to hidaya now.wafi now study pasal landscape kat uitm shsh alam.wafi hanafi and i slalu main kat taman mainan.bile ade mesyuarat perkep (for my mom la)i always main kat taman tu.there was a gelongsor yg sgt tinggi (sgt tak selamat utk kanak).there was also a bigelongsor yg sgt curam (lagi la tak selamat)dah la made from wood and besi.sian kami kanak2 ditindas mase tu.hahaha.now all gelongsor and stuff buat from plastik jer.then mase derjah 3 hasanah pindah there from tampin.we all pun suke kwn ramai2 p main main n p library.tringat mase tu cikgu roslina (cikgu bm dan byk lg subjek)suruh tulis word yg kitorg tak fama n carik maknenye kat library.we kanak2 yg rajin ni pegi amik kamus dewan n carik semua perkataan yg takpnah dgr n salin dlm buku.hahah bodoh.plg bodoh skali bile kitorg jumpe perkataan gigolo then tanye kat cikgu dlm kelas ape maksudnye.hahaha.she said"itu awak tak pahay tau la".hahahaha.....beside that,azlan,ayed,ayien (still jumpe dlm frenster),farid kamsah,murni (pun dlm frenster),marsitah etc etc.plg bertuah when i met fadhilah sharif back bile masuk mrsm taiping.she was anak pengarah penjara jelebu and i remember gave her my scrap book b4 pindah seremban.my best fren mase tu (selain wafi) is rahman ruslan.he moved there mase darjah 4.so budak bandar sbb he before live in subang jaya.we are so close that we cant be seperate (sort of).i met him again mase f3 when her mom jd penolong pengetue of my school (pt) and mase IB.tp kat Ib tak tegur sgt la.hahaha..i last met him mase notts game and we talked.hahaha..that was so nice memories kat jelebu.

mase darjah 6,my family moved back to seremban.musnah la all my sweet memories of zaman kanak2.i became a very introvert kid yg tatau nak berkwn.duduk je rumah tak pegi main2 mane2 pun.my first fren there is idzhar.he duduk blakang my house and satu kelas ngan i kat king george V. (5 dahlia kelas no 6 out of 7).after masuk darjah 6 dah tak kwn sgt sbb kelas lain2 and i was so pemalu malas nak tegur2 org.the i ade hazwani sulaiman.satu kelas 6 mawar n she lived near my house.we always balik skola togethern sometime pg skolah togehterh (kene menceroboh umah pakcik yg aku tak langsung knal smpi s kang).kalu nak p skolah tu mase gelap2 lg dah bertolak.tak pun my dad antakan sbb my sis pun kebetulan skolah araea2 tuh jugak.wani ade basikal.last memori of her is when after upsr result kuar we both pg skolah mintak borg skolah asrama yg tak wujud pun.then no stroy of her dah.kat kelas tak ramai kwn yg aku ingati.ade la amirah yg so big,shikin yg even bigger,hajar yg kepale berhabuk,abul,and hanif.hanif ni i met again mase kat kmb.hahaha.hes now in leeds.i igt muke die but die only igt me after beberape hari masuk Ib tu.hahaha...so klaka.hahahahaa...

then i masuk form1 kat sek men seri dungun.tak igt langsung kwn.tp after spm ramai yg ngaku kenal i mase tgh blaja kerete.ade la sorg yg aku crush pun ade gak blaja kete.hahaha..so kiut.n another one tu is my mom punye kwn punye anak.but i tak kenal pun.ade la sorg yg still tegur2 aku kalau jumpe kat balai polis but yeah...die pun aku lupe gak sape.asyraf kot.hahaha...

hmm...then i was accepted to study kat mrsm pasir tumboh kelantan.my first kwn kat situ was my roomates la.asri alias (which after that jd one of my close fren),syahmi shamsudin and asrul.i met syahmi again kat kmk and once i ternmpk die kat UKM.pastuh asri mmg lost contact wpun sgt akrab outing same2 main getak n volley skali.asrul pun tatau dah katne.pastuh i met shahril (now medic stud kat UPM).same gak la.after form 3 je lost contact.soryr la im not that type of fren yg suke berutus surat mcm mcm.hehehe...nang also one of my fren.slalu buat keje same2.we even ade seluar kargo (sgt la populer mase tuh) yg same type.die punye black and mine kaler khakis.hahah....onlye kontek smpi f4 jer.huhu...mase f2 i baik ngan i junior named faris.muhammad faris from jeli.so kiut.hahaha...pastu mase masuk form 3 dah tak tegur atas sbb2 yg ganjil.cant be explained.pastu i met faiz yushalani.we alway sleep togehter (sound sgt gay kan)its actually more like bro bro relationship.but after leave pt dah tak kontek.hes now in uniten.hehehe...byk lg kawan kat pt ni.fatihah (kat jepun)...she lawat me kat Uk arituh..heheheh..then ade sarah ad.now in monash.ade ijan (UM),labu and judin (russia),rihe and inna (UIAM),ami jipah,kelas A,norsi (korea),and ramai lg...hahaha......best best..

eii dah penat la.byk sgt rakan2 taulan.so i stop here je la.dah takde idea plak.so i cont next la ok.blaaaaaa.........

malaysia boleh!!!

2006-07-01T16:10:00.000+01:00

assalamualaikum...sari berite penting..hehehe...malaysia boleh!!what about malaysia boleh a?well let me first define the topic.malaysia is actualy a democratic country which is located in south east asia.boleh is a malay word for can.so malaysia boleh.hehe..this is actualy a modified version of my elacution text when i was in form 2.weyla..i won second placa tau (teher were only 4 contestant)muahaha...well i dont really want to discuss bout malaysia boleh actually.i was distracted by the fact that malaysia was ranked 3 for the most rudest city in the world by readers' digest. is it true? malaysian as always akan cpt memberi respon either positive or negative.metro, our super tabloid akhbar melaporkan pelbagai reaction of malaysia yg ditemuramah secara randon in KL just after the berite diterbitkan in readers' digest.ade yg tak setuju bulat2 while there are also yg setuju.they also temubual orang putehs and amazingly they all disagree.

my mom pulak terus menerus mencetuskan isu perkauman (sentimen biase dlm org2 prakemerdekaan era ).she dgn menonongly acused chinese for the issue.well mom.its not like in 50s or 60s.now we are all together la.there are no such thing now.

in order to answer this persoalan we must first consider al factor.haha...disinilah masenye nak aplikasikan all the KAB things mase kat mrsm dulu.the criterie cited by readers' digest in determining which city is the rudest are actually nonsense.they even count perihal membuka pintu and senyum all the way like crazy.well that is not our culture.kalau kat Uk tuh mmg la org bukakkan pintu (not really actually)we cant be blamed for not practising the so called code of conduct utk menentukan standard kesopanan manusia tuh.we cant be blamed for not practising org putehs so called civilised culture tuh.helooooooooo....

malaysian like what my org puteh fren said are very shy peoples.they will become very kind (very very very) after the ketidakbiasaan wall dipecahakan.after kenal baru lah mesra.even amongst malaysian ourselves pun kite tak mersa kalau tak kenal kan.dah mmg thats our norm kat sini.

tp one thing yg malaysian mmg rudest when in jalan raya.mmg mase tuh peraturan adalah utk dilanggar.baik motor,lori bas kerete and even myself.tatau la.maybe its genetic (ketawa dgn kebodohan idea sendiri) but its the truth.mmg malaysian will become different on road la.

i watched AC disini in astro ria.he also melenting upon reacting to this issue.but he stupidly telah mengoyakkan majalah tu kat dlm show die yg tak seberapa tu.perlu ke semua tu (ala ala bukak api).cukoplah sekadar menkritik secara damai aje.tayah la koyak2 buku tu pulak.kan ke ilmu semua dlm buku tu wahai AC.kok ye pun marah ngan reader's digest jgn la sampai nampak bodoh plak tindakan tu.

kesimpulannye...after all the kekhilafan readers' digest tu,it is still a good thing to read.byk info2 dlm tu.kalau tak puas ati samalah2 kite anta surat terbuka ke ape ke kat readers digest.nanti di epublishkan la kot.kebebasan media kan~~~sebagai pembaca,kite kene la pandai memilih mane yg elok dan tak elok.jgn jdkan media mass ni sbg satu yg pasti sbb ianya sememangnye tak.dont be stupid.

my unordinary day.....

2006-06-30T16:28:00.000+01:00

it wierd and it wont hapen everyday.today ade karnival dungun.well it sound kinda kampung style expo especially with the dungun carved at the back of the karnivals name but then it was sponsored by Hotlink (hethling as pronounced by our "beloved" siti nurhaliza). All hethling subscriber mesti ade received smsssss yg told bout the karni kan kan kan.i went there with my mom.well i always lookin foward to the kedai bunga and mcm biase la..tentulah ade.the ekspo tu tak la seindah khabar.semua kampung style ekspo mmg diaplikasikan la.wif all the dirts and sampah sarap,creaking streaking funfair facilities and also bau ketiak pacik2 yg i think dah 3 ari tak mandi.i hate that all but those things was actualy wut i missed mase kat edin.muahahaha...i went there empty handed and pulang pun begitu la.saje lalu lalang tgk2.

then i usha one of my close fren punye frenster latest picture captioned "family edinburgh".they looked so happy but yet i dont feel like i belongs to them.well at last i realize that im all alone and guest wut..i will continue being alone and a lot more alone next term.im started to hate what i have now (as usual) and i cant blame it to anyone or anything.the hate dtg mcm tu je n it will hilang n come back again again.mcm satu kitar.but this time i take a further step by expressing the perasaan yg tak best itu.i dont actually know whether its hate or feing left behind or what but yeah..its actually unpleasant.well sorry to leman.this is not about megadakan family day without me.muahaha..beleive me.i dont give a damn.ahh..i cant express this wierd feeling and hopefully it will end soon.

actually they all are a very good companions.kalau i have probs they will dtg help to solve it.i really appriciate it and i will continously need it in the future.thansalot guys.u all sgt baik n best.hmmmmmmmm...im so pelik and unpredictable.

blah.

just now i watched one in a million.my zai erna and suki sume got eliminated.and the so belagak nn bajet bagus azfar made it to the next round.he said kampungly "saya pilih cindy sbb die ni tak berpengalaman dlm bidang nyanyian".ouch.ape die igt malaysian ni suke kat die?tgk muke pun org dah benci ni kan plak nak suh menang sejuta.kalau menang pun sure takde pembeli album die kelak.

bosan giler.last night wafi called.well best jugak.its een a while since i talked in phone.asik chat je.even ckp tepon pon my jari was gerak2 like typing.wafi told that my room telah bersepah (even more bersepah than his).i was in shock for a while.and suddenly my mouth (out of my brain control...hehehe) started to menyumpah2 those who used my room.tibe2 terbyg my so cute spongebob duvet dah berbau badan kerbau mane2 ntah (talking bout kerbau td ade krbau kene langgra kat depan my umah).aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........sumpah...i tgh menyumpah!!!

bercerite pasal the kerbau langgaring tuh..the kenari was badly injured but i dont know wut happened to the cute kerbau yg slalu dtg grazing kat balakang umah i.the kerbau is so big.ketinggian die same dgn ketinggian me.(as if im so that tall...muahaha).sian kat pemilik kerete tuh.harap2 die dpt pengajaran.len kalu kalu lalu kat jalan potong (nama jolokan jalan depan my umah ni)..sila la slowkan kenderaan itu especally bile lalu kat garisan2 kuning yg kaler kilat2 tuh.itu maknenye die suh perlahan tau.jgn jd bodoh lagi.muahaha...(gelak smbil usha kat luar nak tgk kete tu adelg ke tak..still tersadai..padan muke).

hmm..my exclassmate arituh (about 2months ago) sg la hangat nak wat reunion to pulau kapas la n mane2 ntah lagi.then now the kehangatan tahi ayam tuh telah habes seperti yg dijangkakan (its even faster).i made an effort (which is rare)to urge them all to give a persetujuan of the proposed tarikh but after 60hours...only 8 ppl je yg bg respon.aaaaaaaaaaa.....i actually saw many of em yg OL but malas nak cek YG tuh.watdek je.sumpah jd hanjeng br tau.respect la sket kat our ketua anep khan tu oi.die termengah2 (satu kutukan actually) nak menyegerekan xtvt ni.aaaaaaaa......hate em all..muahahaha..

okla..nak titon.esok i kene tanam pokok terung,petola,sawi and also cili api...muahahaha

the very enviromental me!

2006-06-29T14:50:00.000+01:00

memetik kepade kata kata saudara anaz hamim beberape hari lepas

"No one will listen to you.."

ouchh its hurt but i think its true...

i watched satu rancangan kat discovery channel.about a group of 6 strangest from all around the world yg dtg kat malaysia utk mempertahan hutan ulu muda kat kelantan.they want that hutan to be reserved as hutan simpan and also want the kerajaan to make that perticular hutan as eco tourism spot in malaysia. i was impressed by their effort and i was also mesmerized by the stunning diversity that we have in our own hutan.but in the same time kan terase sgt malu and sad.we as malaysian tak penah kisah pun pasal ape2 yg terjadi kat hutan ke ape ke kat malaysia ni. pembalakan sane sini.bile dah tanah runtuh sungan bajir ape sumer baru la tergegeh2 nak tuding jari sane sini.dah la hutan sane sini sume kene croboh,yg lebiy made me sgt very the sad nye, mcm takde sape pun even care.aaaaaaaaaaaa.....i do care but i dont have the channel to menyampaikan ke care an aku ni.aaaaaaaaa......sgt rase mcm nak marah.

untuk melepaskan kemaharan...i told my perasaan to my fren and satu tamparan hebat kene kat muke bile die cakap "kalau byk hutan camne malaysia nak maju"..aaaa.......aaaaaaaaaaa.....makan je la org mcm kau tuh.mane ntah akal nye pun tatau. hellooooo...kemajuan bukan diukur dgn berape hektar hutan dimusnahkan dlm setahun ok! n kalau u claim yg hutan perlu musnah sbb nak bina bangunan..meh i templak kat u punye telinge....kemajuan pun tak diukur dgn how many bangunan yg dah terbina kat negara ni tau.aaaaaaa........

tatau la pasal ape but i really sgt tak ske kepade kemusnahan hutan.bile naik kerete lalu tepi jalan nampak pokok kene tebang rase mcm nak turun wat piket.but that will bring no difference pun.

and my family once talked bout malaysia now already have big boat with hyper maju techno yg capable of processing ikan ikan terus kat dlm boat.they even can catch a lot more fish than before.rase mcm nak je aku ckp, tuh ke yg kite banggakan? the bigger the boat, the more fish they will catch and this means overmanipulating akan timbul plak.mcm wut happen kat europe now yg diorg kekurangan fish sampai byk pelabuhan yg kene tutup.sume sbb overmanipulating la.tangkap sampai melebihi kadar pembiakan ikan ikan.now dah takde ikan they run to africa tangkap ikan2 kate sane sampaikan org laut africa now kene berhijrah balik pg hutan sbb takde source of fish dah...

i tried to explain this to my family when they talked bout how kurangnye ikan kat pasar dungun skang and how nelayan sume kene carik pekerjaan lain.whut i get...huh..they said "dah tuahn ciptakan ikan untuk makan..makan je la" dengan muke yg aku rase cm nak sepak. well at last aku tau gak ade la yg bodoh.aaaaaa....they dont even get the point.i was talking about how our life can affect the environment and hualla....huh very the bodoh.

use only wut u need coz the suply truly are limited

that was told by an iklan kat TV. that iklan is so bagus n menyedarkan.i wish iklan tu disiarkan kat TV malaysia every 60 minutes tau.people dont know that sume yg diorg buat akan affect the ecosystem n stuff like that.when i wash the dishes aku will tutup paip tu and try to use the water effectively.hmm...my fren sed..ape nak dijimatkan air tu..kat scotland ni air free.i know air tuh free.everybodi tau.wut they dont know is that air bersih inthis world makin berkurangan.mmg la laut luas hingga 70% of world surface covered with it.but kite lupe yg only less than 1% je yg boleh gune utk kehidupan normal.and each year jumlah air tuh makin kurang.walaupun air sumber yg boleh diperbaharui, byk air yg ilang mase proses pembalikan air (water cycle) sbb pencemaran and stuff like that.ahh...nanti bile kos air dah meningkat 1000kali gande pastuh dah water krisis mcm africa tuh br la nak tergadah.well tlupe plaak tuh mmg sikap manusia.

i try to mengaplikasikan kitar semula kat my flat.not really easy.lucky that i have a very memahami flatmates.they all cooperates though sometime ade yg tercampur aduk and lupe la nak kitar semula.tuh pun aku amik effort utk p anta kat center tau.kalau tak mampus sume wat dek je.susah.aku digelar menteri alam sekitar and stuff like that.tak kisah.but its hurt that i cant even make my close frens hear my voice....not even one of them....

bukanlah aku ni pencinta alam ke ape ke.though jal sering menuduh aku sbg pencinta alam aku sabar je.maybe betul la tuh.wut i want is just to make then all sedar that it is actually our tanggungjwb utk semua tu sbb eventually kite mmg akan disalahkan in the future atas kekurangan n kesan semua tuh.owh Allah please let them sedar semua ni.let my voise be heard...

pengajaran
1.use only what u need bcoz the sources/supply truly are limited
2.its actually our tanggungjwb utk menjaga alam sekitar ni
3.kitar semula la oi
4.bukan pencinta alam je yg kene jage environment ni...semua penghuni alam la
5.semua ni baik niatnye.kire ibadat jugak.dapat pahala.jgn la smpi kite manafikan hak org len pulak kelak.aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
6.i hate those yg takde kesedaran itu.

hadith riwayat Abu Daud dan At tirmizi...

2006-06-27T14:59:00.000+01:00

"Apabila seseorang mencintai saudaranya, maka hendaklah ia menyatakan rasa cintanya kepadanya"

maafkan ayah...

2006-06-27T14:45:00.000+01:00

kepada abdullah, ibrahim, hassan, udaimatun, ikhlas dan kauthar...maafkan ayah kerana tidak menjadi seorang ayah yang sempurna.memang manusia itu tidak sempurna namun ketidaksempurnaan ayah tiada tolok bandingan nya.ayah sedar, ayah tersalah memilih jalan.dan kini ayah sedar dan cuba kembali kepangkal jalan.kembali ke jalan Allah.maafkan ayah.sampaikan salam sayang ayah kepada ibu.ayah sanagt berterima kasih kepada ibu yang sanggup berkorban dan sanggup menerima ayah seadanya.semoga kita semua kan bertemu, semoga kita semua kan kekal bersama....

post hidayat syndrome

2006-06-14T14:52:00.000+01:00

exam dah habes, cuti pun dah officially start...hmmm....semuanya mmg menyeronokkan.even better, im now back in malaysia. im suppose to be happy.so happy that i can lupekan all the kesedihan yg ade.hmm..i am happy.but the kehappyan mcm ade kekuraangan.mcm ade sedikit ketidakkenaan je. cari mencari puncanye.sebenarnye dah tau puncanya.cume nak justifykan sahaja.inilah yg kite pangil post hidayat syndrome.betul la kot.but im quite yakin yg syndrome ni takkan bertahan lame.keyakinan yg disertai dgn doa dan usaha.hmm..iAllah jumpe la lagi lepas ni kan.amin.

berwajah baru lagi

2006-05-10T17:34:00.000+01:00

bersempene dgn berakhirnya minggu peperiksaan ini
makanya saya tiada pekerjaan
masa habis dgn tido jalan jalan dan makan
untuk membaca da vinci code adalah tidak menjd kenyataan
makanya saya telah merombak penampilan ini
walaupun jauh disudut hati
saya dpt menerima kenyataan bwh tiada pembaca
saya redha
hahaha
aku punye blog..org tanak bace aku ape kesah.aku pun tak bace blog korg...hahahahahahaha
btw im proud dgn hasil kerja ku ini
though template ini di ambil dr org
yg asal adalah jauh lebey buruk dan redundant
yg nih lg best
yeah afiq cemerlang
hahah
okla
dah abes exam...alallalalalal

saya dah abes exam

2006-05-09T11:45:00.000+01:00

best nye
tak terikre
dah abes exam
dah tak kisah dah ngan sape sape pun
ape ape pun
hahahah
lg 32 hari dah nak balik umah
seronoknyerr
lalalalala

tidak!

2006-05-04T00:18:00.000+01:00

tidak!
tiada satu formula pun pernah dirangka
keadaan akan tetap sama
tiada perubahan
kalau semua menjaja konco2 diri
satu parti diri sendiri akan tertubuh
berpuak puak
akan kekal begitu
sambutan yang tidak mendapat sambutan
sebuah pihak mendominasi
kelak merungut
tidak memberi kerjasama
pelik
harimau takkan nak makan bersama singa
kalau begitulah caranya
harimau harimau
seinga singa
singa bersidang
kumpul puka singa
hahaha
takpelah
biarkanlah singa singa
harimau harimau
biarkan singa kelak mengigit kuku
menanti nanti
termanggu manggu manalah si harimau harimau
aduh
hai manusia
sudah 2006
sedarlah
manusia manusia
semua manusia
cina india melayu putih hitam semua manusia
hahahaha

ps:rasa bengang dengan politik

kebosanan

2006-04-30T12:54:00.000+01:00

study study study dan study lagi
menghadap semua yang hapir sama
menyendiri
tak jumpe ramai org sgtpretty sure
diorg pun dont give a damn
siapalah aku
hakaa
buhsan
tak larat nak study
exam lg 2 ari
doakanlah aku

kerana ia.

2006-04-28T23:39:00.000+01:00

17 september 2005, 0924

terjaga.bergegar.badan penat.terapung-apung.lebih 14 jam.toleh ke kiri.awan.terlihat awan.tebal.sejuk.terfikirkan kesejukan.toleh ke kanan.perempuan.kenal.baru kenal.kawan.untuk 4 tahun seterusnya.ahh...masih ada 4 tahun lagi.terus toleh ke kiri.awan lagi.awan kembali.awan tebal.putih.kosong.sekosong fikiran.apa di hadapan?suara.tiba-tiba suara.suara perempuan.faham.tapi tak faham.faham 14 jam ini akan berakhir.faham 4 tahun itu akan bermula.toleh ke kanan.perempuan tadi.perempuan tadi lagi.perempuan tadi untuk 4 tahun mendatang.

apa dihadapan?kerusi?bukan.apa dihadapan?cabaran?mungkin.dugaan.mungkin.semuanya mungkin.apa dihadapan?sudah!sudah!

bangun.berdiri.melihat sekeliling.terasa ingin menjengah ke luar tingkap.tak mahu pula.terlupa.bukan di tempat biasa.di tempat sangat luar biasa.teringat sudah.

"jaga diri baik baik.jangan tinggal solat.belajar elok elok"

masih berdiri.perempuan tadi.masih duduk.muka mencuka.atau tidak? itukah mukanya? benci.seribu kebencian.harap mampu disuruk.benci. kebencian yg dibina.bukan oleh diri.oleh perempuan itu sendiri.bermaksud? bodoh sahaja begitu.tak bermaksud? perempuan itu memang begitu?

berjalan.sangat perlahan.terkedek kedek.makhluk di depan panjang.sangat panjang.tapi tak sepanjang khayalan.tak sepanjang bayangan.ahh...tertipu.di tipu.lebih kurang rupanya.akhirnya pintu.sampai juga.kapalnya kecil sahaja.cuma orang orang berjalan lambat.lorong sempit mungkin.barangkali.tangga pula.

ahh...sesak.berasap?tidak.sejuk.ya.sejuk.sangat sejuk.hujan?ya.hujan.hujan renyai renyai.hujan.selepas hujan lebat.sejuk lagi.dan masih sejuk.oh terlupa.dada sesa.baju ketat? tidak.bahana sejuk mungkin.perempuan tadi?hampir terlupa.boleh dilupakan.tak mungkin terlupa untuk 4 tahun lagi.benci.

berjalan.berhaluan.mengikut haluan.mengikut orang.masih berjalan.sampai.sampai ke sebuah bangunan.sebuah bangunan di lapangan.mata liar.mencari cari.mencari cari bagasi.beratur.dengan perempuan tadi lagi.panggil sahaja ratu.bagus.beratur.beratur dengan ratu.

"ratu...mana bagasi?"

memandang.berderet deret.mancari.berbagai bentuk.hampir terlupa.tak terpikir apa rupa bagasi carian.biru.segi segi.seberat 27.9kg.di sinikah?bukan kata ratu.lihat.bukan untuk penerbangan antarabangsa.mencari lagi.lepas selorong selorong.terkinja kinja.akhirnya.lorong ke empat.lorong terakhir.ada.terjumpa.bagasi biru.bagasi ratu?ada juga.hanya lewat.

berbagasi.bertroli.dua troli.apa pula?tercari lagi.mencari cari.apa?siapa?siapa.lebai janggut.nama tua.mungkinkah.tercari.termanggu.lipatan kertas kecil dibuka.dibuka ratu.betul.lebai janggut yang dicari.tercari lagi.mencari cari.berbeza.bingung.semua berbeza.tutur kata.warna.bau juga.semuanya berbeza.tercari cari.batang hidung melayu.tiada.

"tunggul dan ratu?"

ya.terjumpa.terjumpa sudah.mungkinkah ini?lebai janggutkah?bukan.tentunya bukan.muka mamak.mamak juga.mungkin.barangkali.senang hati.tak kisah.nik ruskimankah.mamakkah.tak kisah.tak susah.resah tiada lagi.terlihat seseorang.melayu.gemuk.melayu gemok hitam.ahh lupakan.tidak berkenaan.

jalan lagi.ahh.malas.apa dihadapan?tahu.tidak tahu.tahu.tidak pasti.berjalan lagi.sejuk.keluar bangunan di lapangan.menuju parkey.eh...bunyi itu.bunyi itu.sama seperti bunyi di hari perbarisan polis.polis.balai polis kuala klawang.tahun 1992.aduh.darjah satu.tercari cari ibu.mana ibu?.di pentas.mungkin.mana abah?.di pentas juga.mungkin.

tersentak.mana ibu?mana abah?oh..telah ditinggalkan.tinggal di malaysia.berjalan lagi.bunyi itu masih berbunyi.bunyi paip.sambutan?disambut.terasa disambut.terharu.ibu dan ayah.rindu.rindu setelah berpisah.14 jam.ribuan batu.masih berbunyi.bertambah rindu.lupakan.si mamak berteman.ada teman.pemandu.memandu.wira merah.mewah.berkereta.tidak mewah.kereta pinjam.siapakah?si kucing.panggil saja si kucing.

ratu.ratu dahaga.mahukan air.minuman bergas.belilah.belilah sendiri.tidak.hanya dalam hati.luaran.masih sopan.benci?sedikit sedikit.beli air.duit.duit terbang.kini miskin.miskin sepound lima puluh dari sebelum.miskin.menunggu pula.menunggu si mamak.kaget.pelik.ratu dan kucing.janggal.kenal.tidak kenal.kenal.tidak mesra.masih tidak.menunggu lagi.kaget.

mamak sampai.naik wira merah.tergelak.bagasi besar.tergelak.lucu?buat buat lucu.mungkin.menjaga hati.berlakon.lagak mesra.sambutan.menyambut.menyambut orang baru.tunggul dan ratu.ketawa.kereta bergerak.keluar.tidak!suram.bandarnya suram.bangunan?mana bangunan.sabar.mungkin luar bandar.tanya kucing.tanya mamak.kucing dan mamak cerita.kucing dan mamak jawab.mamak banyak jawab.ratu banyak tanya.kucing?muka tenang.pasti otak yang berkata.mata memberitahu.pelik dan jelik.

sejuk.bandar.kuala lumpur maju.maju sedikit.bangunan tertinggi di dunia.ada dua pula.di sini?kamdar masjid india.lebih tinggi barangkali.majukah?mungkin maju dari segi lain.bukan bangunan.bukan sama sekali.sejuk lagi.hujan renyai.dalam kereta.kereta wira.wira bergerak.masih bergerak.

mood mood dimanakah kamu

2006-04-28T02:55:00.000+01:00

mood
dimanakah kamu
saya kehilangan kamu
aaaaa...
saya nak study
tapi saya tiada pendorong
pendorong dah tanak study
pendorong utama pulak sgt jauh dr pandangan
aaaa....

that kiss

2006-04-17T10:06:00.000+01:00

lalalal
that kiss
ill remember it till i die

and now
its ok if u have to go away
i dont mind
at all

may happiness will always be with you
wut ever happen
ill remember
ill remember that kiss till i die

saya sayang kamu

2006-03-26T23:34:00.000+01:00

saya sayang kamu
sy tgh ajak kamu menaip post dlm blog
saya sayng kamu
sungguh..
tak tipu

makin sayang

2006-03-26T18:08:00.000+01:00

nothing much
just spent my whole night with my bestest bro si payat
menelaah yg tak menelaah itu
tapi sgt gembire sbb best tak terkata
bangun pagi walaupun lambat
kegembiraan tetap ade
tibe tibe sedar buh ade tanye
pasal sape yg romantik
mule asalnye di tulis untuk org lain but now even i confuse untuk sape
uhh
cinta mengelirukan itu
suz kate lately i jiwang
yeah really?
haha
just need a bit of attention kot
nguah nguah
gtg
menanti hari yang lebih menarik esok
selamat tinggal sayang
11 jun bakal menyaksikan due org tersyg di luputkan dlm diary kehidupan harian
mungkinkah?
mungkin tidak
apa yg pasti mereke akan tiada lagi
kalau sedih
sedihlah aku
kalau happy happy la
ape nak jadi jadi la
dapat bygkan betapa terputusnya hubungan itu kelak
i ll miss u two twat twat
hahha
infact, i already miss u twa twat twat
hmmmpuahhssssmushh msuhhh (bunyi air liur)
hhehehaa
ok ok
gtg again

kekeliruan

2006-03-24T18:35:00.000Z

kini aku sangat keliru
keliru dengan sesuatu yang tiada kepastian
setiap masa yang berlalu
penuh difikirkan
adakah hidup ku ini satu perjuangan
atau adakah ianya sekadar sebuah khayalan
yang dihiasi seribu kedukaan
tiap detik yang berlalu
jawapan itu di cari
adakah semuanya penuh dengan kejujuran
atau sekadar memenuhi keperluan
yang menyayang di buang
yang di sayang hilang
yang diimpi jadi mimpi
yang nyata terus di lupa
andai hati terguris
rela diguris kerana cinta
rela dihiris kerana sayang
penuh hidupku dengan kesedihan

buhlshit

2006-02-19T09:16:00.000Z

i dont know why but u have suddenly changed.if u r testing me, u r wasting ur time coz i wouldnt change.the love will just be the same.if u really hate me, to that extent ,im sorry even though i know theres nothing for me to be sorried about.i thought u are my bestfriend and please dont make me wrong bout tis.

Afiq Adham

mimpi semalam

menjejak realiti

Setahun Yg Lalu

Kesesakkan lalulintas

Alhamdulillah

May Allah Save The Fleet...

Ahmad Wafi Mahmood Zuhdi

ajmal oh ajmal

Kekasihku dirisik orang.

The Dream is Getting Stranger and Weirder

oppsss i did it again!

Strangest Dream

Arghhh...

Happy bearthday!!!

what about life

Kebosanan Maksimum

Crazy!

boring

haiyah

what's real?

A Puppy, And A rainy day

life after uni..

Warkah Untuk Kamu...

Selamat Hari Raya!

Epiphany

Genosid Bahasa? Neraka Apakah Itu?

it's just a simple math!!!!

kabus kabus dan kabus lagi...

Empty Decoration

Innalillah...

Misery

09-02-2009

Alhamdulillah

Selamat Tinggal

Keputusan Kuiz Nonsense!

Just Another Day

My Very Own 14th January 2009

i'll always pray for you.

Down Down Down

You've Got A Friend - Carole Kings

False Hope

update yg haram bosan

Exam sudah dekat!

just another ordinary day

Revision starts now!

A year had passed

what a hectic week

奉大仁大慈的真主之名

HAri RAyA Aidilfitri ke 2

Selamat Hari Raya!

selayang pandang

afiq is learning to let go

bingung...

merdekakah kita?

Project Kalsom 13

Malu~~~~~~

Pasar Malam Bandar Dungun!

Sambutan Bulan Kemerdekaan 2007

Selamat Pulang Wira Negara!!!

hooooooooooooo...boring.......

my australian winter holiday...muah muah

im baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!!

Hellooooooooooo Australia

mari mengecat rumah! (tatau la tajuk ni sesuai ke tak)

Dungun here i come!!!

hooray....hooray...it's a holy holyday!!!!

haluuuuuuu malaysia.......

babai edinburgh...babai cipi!!!!

bye bye 5/8 nicolson street, hello 19/7 west nicolson street

hari hari terakhir seorang afiq...hahaha

Popular

5 years ago....

Terima Kasih!

The Final Countdown

BIsmillah...

?????

semoga selamat

sebulan berlalu.

merdeka! merdekat! merdeka!